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6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
To me step 6 means that others cannot change me. Others cannot remove my behaviors and problems. Just like I cannot control others behaviors they cannot control mine. I don't have to do anything. I just want to want to change. I am at the point where I do want to change. I first came to al-anon because my life had gotten so chaotic and stressful. I was suffering with depression and anxiety. I didn't know what else to do. I had thought about coming to al-anon a while ago but then never did. Since I've been a part of al-anon I feel like I've learned so much about myself. I've started taking care of myself. Using the slogans, the serenity prayer, and the tools of al-anon. It's a great feeling to know that I don't have to wonder what I should be doing to change but I have tools to help me change. It gives me a sense of freedom. Step 6 is being ready to give my defects to my HP to hand them over and start creating the life for myself that I want to live. No one else that has power but me. It doesn't have to happen over night. I can go as slow or as fast as I want to. That's exciting. I'm excited for my future I'm excited for knowing that I can have peace and serenity. I have grown closer to my HP. I smile more. I can honestly say even though I am still suffering with depression and anxiety the tools are helping to me to think differently. I no longer throw myself a pity party (OK once in a while I do) but now it's not an everyday occurrence. Now I actually try to take action and help myself and with the help of my HP i am seeing a change. A change in myself, a change in my relationships with the A and others. A change in my thinking and the way I view things. I am ready to have God remove all my defects of character. I'm ready for a new and better happier healthier life.
Alanon has given me the answer to my prayers. I have better boundaries and have found inner peace. And you are right. No one can tell me what to do or change. My HP keeps me in line. Yes, I am entirely ready to have my HP remove all my defects of character. Wow, what a relief.