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I have acceptance today. I am still devasted at my loss of my bf. I know that there will be times that I will break down and cry uncontrollably. But this time I am noticing is different. The last time he left (last yr hunting season) I was just sad, very angry, depressed, couldn't get past it..did distructive things. And then he came back. This time, I noticed I am still sad, very angry, but I also have an acceptance that I never had before. I think becuase deep down this time I know I started sticking up for myself, and I know that I didn't set any unreasonable requests of a controlling nature. I basically asked to be respected. That was my big thing. I thank all of you so much, you don't know. Last year when he left, I was so depressed messed up that I almost lost my son. I feel totally different this time because of my program and the help from people here. Thanks.
I know what you mean and I like how you put it in words - I never thought of the word acceptance quite this way. It sounds like serenity is peeking into your corner of the world and it is such a wonderful feeling to offset all the chaos we all live with. As we keep working it, it gets easier some times and better. Keep coming back and thanks for posting this - something I needed to hear.
hugs, ddub
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"Choices are the hinges of destiny." Pythagoras You can't change the past, but you can change the future.
Aha!! you've had an AHA!! moment...kinda like a miracle only you kept the top of your head on. LOL Miracles will blow your mind or did this one do that for you?
I have been keeping up with your past posts and today you sound so much better. I used to think that I wasn't complete without a partner and I think for me that was a big part of why I always took him back. I know different now thanks to alanon. I also know that if for some reason we wouldn't stay together it would be hard but I would be fine. I think it was our 2nd year into the relationship I almost lost custody of my daughter b/c of the crazyness with his active alcoholism. I would not let that happen again.
