Hi family, well I was my usual stubborn self and so the surgery went well. staff was great. I made one nurse get a bit mad and red faced...haha they have these horrid, plastic gowns now with a input to stick in this hose that blows warm or cold air.

I felt like I was in a plastic bag!! I did not say anything. I just took the hose off and put it blowing in my face! She was messing with my jewelry that I said will not come off. rrrr oh the doctors want it all off. oh welllll. my one turquoise bracelet   has like three O rings to make it stay on. no clasp. ON. haha my silver bracelet I super glued. My rings are on and loose but the knuckle above them has arth so I cannot get them off. ohhhh she was red.

I, becuz of alanon thought, "This is MY surgery, I am doing this for ME." no I am not obnoxious, just am tenaciously, quietly stubborn! NO longer the wussy, shy, sucking it up person.

Anyhooooo told the anth guy if I don't make it he has to take care of all my animals...they all knew about my no family or intimate friends left and my sanctuary. It is on file becuz of the grief depression. Important becuz of not caring to wake up. I felt good though so felt positive.

Woke up very well, then had huge tears cuz all that grief I keep held in, just poured out. I feel it went well as my first time with out a loved one there. Mac, my son, took me, and picked me up  was so good to me. But he oversees, leadman building houses and remodel so HAD to be there.

He did go in when I did. Was a strange ride, well getting into his cool jeep and sitting in and getting out was trippie!!

The miniscus in my knee was like a hamberger of scar tissue. doc, cute doc, got it all cleaned up and said it was beautiful, however said I will need a knee replacement later. Arth is very bad.

I read Daniel in the Bible off and on there. Whoa!! It is like scifi, very interesting.

Because of skills from Al Anon it was ever so much easier. The learning to stand up for me with out being pushy or shy.They all told me of their animals too.(o:

It is funny as they would say OH I have so many 4 dogs 3 cats and one bird. crimany everyone asks me allll the time,"how many animals do you have?" I never, ever count. They are Estersue, Sauvey, Happy, etc... uno not just animals.
Anyway sleep study was ok. the people are a bunch of the younger hippie types. that was great. nothing bugged me, had the room very cold and comfy for me. I stopped breathing on an average of 17 times an hour. My one nostril is too closed, that parrot back when that bit me...cpap on the 18th for another study. get the cpap. I told them I am sneaking Tavish in. the most hard part was waking up with NO life in that room. I would have rather slept in anyones barn.
man the animals went nuts when I got home!!! "MOM!!!!!" then, "Feed!!!" geez I fed them the day I left, surgery and home in hours.." ?? They are open mouths and endless tummys!

First couple days were rough. Getting the morphine out of me, then the dang antibiotic killed my good flora, the stupid vicodan made me itch, miserable gal.
Friday doc office screwed up and did not call in my kill that over growing flora med. rrrr I could not stand it and a neat nurse called it in Sunday. oh man M, T,W, now thursday I feel sooooo much better. I am not waking up feeling sick.

tv, vcr, receiver,dvd cord chewed by Reeba Parrot face, keyboard allll dead when I got home from the hospital!!! sigh.

Tommyt brother, found a neat vcr/dvd combo at a garage sale that is great!! so nice of him. I had another older tv. this was a couple days later.  just got some new cord for dvd.

got me some roses, real pretty mellow peach. turned around and "someone" had made lovely rose petals alllll over my bed.......Well it was Happy, my fun poodle/shih zue....he is soooooo much fun and soooooo loving. He was chasing 900 pound Estersue pig last night!! hahahaha he is not as big as any dog head here. Bout the size of a foot ball with curly black hair...hehe

gotta goose I named Walka walka. for some reason they are drawn to me when I say that. it is white with blue eyes and known for its gentleness.

Kisses my feet and legs, I bend over and it sorta love pecks my face and hair until I pick him./her up. lol

The siamesy ragdoll like kitten Curt, short for curtain climber, and Happy are best buds, so fun to watch. just now tav,hap, and curt are wrestling.

Tish the Goffin cockatoo is bald on her neck up to her head and has only her fluffy feather cept for her tail and top not. she LOVES attention and gets it. she came in only saying hello. now says thank you when ya feed her, hi, and I have taught her to dance, and bob her head and put her wings out and say,"Woooo!!, Wooo!!!"

and guess what? her feathers are coming back, she has quit plucking!!! Potter's Eden magic!

lonliness has ceased pretty much. knowing I no longer long for the AH has made me more serene.

lol Happy is running around growling and barking playing with an mt cat food can!!I laughed he climbed onto the bed pulled my hair then ran off again!

Alanon has taught me so much compassion for people. Well that and the Bible. Everyone has their demons. Sadly even our loved ones.  As serene as I am, I choose to never live with or fall in love with an A again. Would not ever develope a friend that is one. Would help them however I could, but would not take them in.  

Care too much about me and Eden to keep fighting their demons from tearing my gentle heart apart. I would not have anyone awful to my home and animals, children? NO WAY. no way. I know what it does to we adults, children cannot grow like we want living with an Active A, or A not in program. This is MY view.

thankyou for listening and encouraging words. love is what makes a person heal.
wrist surgery Sept. 30 last sleep study the 18th. then  I am finished with fixing my owees. I have gone down 2 sizes and am feeling well that way too. Kept praying for help with that...well all of a sudden it is happening without effort. 100% vegie, No cookies or anything in the house. real fruit pop cicles, chewy fruit candy like stuff? fruit, vegies pasta, lots of ongoing water, juice and real ginger ale. am up as much as I can be, cannot wait to start my walking program with a dog or two!! could hook bonnie and sauvy to a wheel sled and have them pull me!!doubt that would help my bod much! haha

I have learned lots reading your posts as I layed here. so much pain and anguish. All I know is when a person makes a goal, and believe it will happen, they will work towards it until it does. ONE day at a time, take care of what you can, leave the rest and then play!!

the next day do the same.
thankyou if you made it this far,
almost finished..I am going on a huge adventure. there are two horrible neglected pot bellied pigs in LA Cal. yep. I am planning and praying on how to get there to break them out of jail. MAJOR for me to drive that far away. I actually have a cousin there!! The tricky part is getting two huge pots in my little car, and gas money. I know it will come.

I will probably go alone. hmmmm, drive down, sleep, drive back up. If money comes I could rent a ac  van so we will see. Our huge pig community may  help...

hugs! debilyn now on only one crutch. (O: