The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
it is a very nice morning here...the sun is out..kind of quiet around here right now
i plan on going to a 12 15 aa meeting today..its one of my favorites at the moment
my a is still in detroit and i am somewhat glad she is there..all though we are still in contact...many folks have told me to cut her off completely..i can't seem to do that yet
progress not perfection
i do miss her but i do not miss the caos and bull that went along with being with her...maybe she needs to deal with herself and her own life as i deal with mine..here alone
i hope things will get better for both of us and i am trying as best i can to leave everything up to my hp..or at least give it away to him/her/it
the lifestyle i am leading now..though..seems to be getting a bit..well..fragmented is what comes to mind..i am not finding the real passions yet...the real desires..the real stuff that makes me feel fully alive..in the moment..i am still on gaurd..i am still uncertain about who i am and what i want and were my life is heading
i guess i just need to continue to saty in the moment and do what i can just for today...just for now
i've been reading the i ching lately and that too...along with my program works..is helping me out..helpijg to center me..giving me new inspiration and advise
but i am growing a bit tired..bored and lonely..and that is all right for now..but i feel i need more in my life..a fuller life...with more people places and things on a positive note..the positive side of that..that is what i think i need..but only my hp will decide if that is what i am ready for
i have been having a really hard time of it for the past four or five years..maybe even longer..i am hoping things will contin ue to brighten up for me..as things in my life and the way i look at myself become less foggy and more clear
i wish the best to everyone on this board and to all of their families and loved ones..i find some of the most ourageous people i know continue on this path of recovery and it is my great fortune that i have been turned on and tuned in to this way of life
so thank you all and hope all of you have a wonderful day
Aloha Charles...after a while you'll get unstuck and find both freedom and the answers you need. That's after a while of learning, practicing and taking the suggestions from someone other than yourself. That was the door to freedom for me. "If nothing changes...nothing changes."
