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As many of you know I used with my A last weekend. While it was his initiation, etc, I feel now a since of responsibility that I used with him- that I somehow condoned it or influenced. I feel like if something spirals out of control now that it might be related to me. Or at least that I am no loner the safe place for him to turn because he knows I cannot take a strong enough stand against his using. Thanks for letting me vent.
I did what you did...I drank with her. I tried to teach her how to drink without getting damaged. While I drank with her I thought she was safer drinking with me and I didn't know about and denied my own drinking condition. I used with her. I bought for her ... I enabled her and was as sick or sicker than her on all levels.
No way was she safe with me. No way was she safe with anyone who enabled her drinking. For me enablers are not a safe haven. For me enablers are like wet slope on a steep slide...I made what was bad even worse. She would not have found recovery with me in her life. I would not have found recovery with her in my life.
Maybe a good idea to go get an assessment on you drinking and using habits. I believe there are places on the net where you could do that for free and with complete anonimity.
