The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
You all know i am no longer in Al-anon as a group or online, i do however still practice the principles in my everyday life. For over two years i ate, drank and slept Al-anon. I then saw fit to try living my life on my own and gaining some independence. After six months of no fellowship i am doing fantastic.
I have found i have Patience, Calmness, Serenity in my life. I no longer go into quick panic mode, i just go with the flow and enjoy my life day to day. I've been doing "photography & Creative Writing" and have found i have a few talents i am now using. I have family and friends in my life that i am truealy grateful for. I have one special friend and we are just living life "one day at a time" he has his life, i have mine. We have been friends almost seven months and i have learned NOT to expect anything from him.
Yesterday i done something MASSIVE in my life. I faced all my fears. I jumped 10,000Ft from a plane.....I was attatched to an Instructor. It was the most awesome experience of my life. I was so cool, calm and collected, waited about for five hours before it was my slot. I never once sat down, i was crazy laughed non stop, i had the COURAGE and the HEART to do it for the "Childrens Hospice", for terminally ill children.
You all remember me as being the "terrified wee lassie who grew up with a drinker" OMG look at her now Hahahaha....
I am a young woman who has let go of all her ghosts, found her Independence, and learned to accept others faults and all, and live and let live. I am so much "Happier" with myself, i am full of self belief, "Well after jumping out of a plane i must be" Haha.
I know the person i am, and i no longer care about other peoples views. If i do something wrong i know myself and i make my amends. If someone doesn't like who i am..The problem is with them, NOT me. Life is too short and i have wasted so many years looking back. All i want to do is discover myself every day, live my life and be happy.
I have a webpage and a lot of friends in my life and the all say the same "I am an Inspiration" i never used to agree with them, but today i do. I am an Inspiration, i came from Survival to Recovery and i have beaten the most painful things in my life. I never once gave up, I just keep getting kicked and bouncing back again, and it's worked in my life.
I know Al-anon has some very sick, lonely, scared people in the fellowship, i know this because i used to be one of them. Look at me, i chose the path to recovery and i'm still travelling it, but the biggest change in me today is that i believe "I AM WORTH IT" and i never ever forget that in my life......
Life is a rollercoaster, some days it feels like you can't go on, you have no place to turn. YES you can, roll with the punches, don't sit back and allow them to beat you.........
I am a success story of Al-Anon.......So many people failed to believe in me....yesterday i just proved them all wrong.
I have heart and soul....Courage....Guts....Bottle....I said to someone i don't know where i get it from........Yes i do.....I was affected with Alcoholics in my life and that made the the person i am today...And thats why i have the guts to jump out of a plane LOL
Miss you all and wishing you all the best....hope my story can give someone some hope and belief that it does get better...just keep on fighting....
p.s I started this fundraising on my own, and i have raised almost $2,000 for terminally ill children....I am so proud of myself YAY.......Go Girl....LOL
