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Haven't been around much in the last few months but sure have missed you all.
Debilyin, you asked for an update of my adventures. I was laughing so hard trying to think of some.
We have basically just been living life at my end of the world. Trying very hard not to focus on the A. Sometimes it is easier than others. It depends on whether or not the hospital is calling. We have almost lost her four or five times in the last year or so.
It has taken a long time to get to the point where I do not go when they call anymore. Her Mom still does and still continues to "save" her. When folks stop "saving" her maybe she will figure out she has to be the one to save herself.
I have enjoyed a summer off this year due to the business I was working for closing down. Although it has been difficult financially, it has been wonderful for my body and mind. Have been living in my garden. By the way, anyone want some zucchinni??? I swear it has mutated and has taken over.
I fell in February and ended up with a frozen shoulder. I am happy to report that mountians of physio has worked and have been able to avoid surgery.
We have a sick puppy (aka, 10 year old dog but they are all babies in my mind). She has breast cancer. So far she is comfortable and with some amazing medication has been like a puppy these last couple of weeks. It is hard knowing in the back of your mind that we will not have her for long. I enjoy her while she is here and she is becoming so spoiled (and she was spoiled rotten before). Our other boy has decided that skunks are to kill and he managed to get himself skunked this year. Double
I have learned so much from this program and from other avenues I have explored. Mostly I do not give myself away so easily anymore. I am worth so much more. I am taking care of me first which in turn gives me more energy for the other things and people I choose to care for.
I have learned that "it is what it is" and there is often not a dang thing I can do about what it is. I keep my own side of the road clean and try very hard not to worry about the other side. This is extremely difficult for me as I HATE a mess. Sometimes I just have to close the curtians and not look at the mess.
I have enjoyed my summer. We went away overnight to a concert and I attended a great big 3 day fun and food filled Italian wedding for my cousin.
It is now job hunting time. Oooohhh Yuck interviews.
Basically, all is not well at my end of the world (can it ever be with an active A)but I am well and I am worth keeping well.
I have missed you all and look forward to seeing more of this wonderful family.
lilms
-- Edited by lilms at 09:52, 2008-08-22
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Two things: 1. Recovery is a process, not an event.....and.... 2. You only get to go around once. Leave em laughing and make it worth your while
Thanks for the update, and I will certainly keep your sick 'baby' in my prayers. I have one here with congestive heart failure, and although the vet said we might have one good year with her on the heart meds, she's passed the 3 year mark on the meds and turned 15 in April! I cherish each day that I have with her. She was the oldest AD's dog who regularly got dumped on me, and this last time I said no more, she will stay with me till she passes away. She deserves love and stability in her life.
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"If a dog will not come to you after having looked you in the face, you should go home and examine your conscience." - Woodrow Wilson
What a phenomenal share. Thank you for sharing your esh. I want so much to have a life that is relished as your clearly is. I "endure" rather than live and am working pretty hard on changing that. Sorry you have been so challenged. Glad you have time to be back with us sharing our ESH.
and he managed to get himself skunked this year. Double