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..a bit off..can't sleep tonight..hit up four meetings today..guess i needed them
out on the weekend..as they see
seeing things a bit more clearly but still struggling..as always
the glass is more then half full these days..hope is slowly seeping in..as is change..but some of the remnants of the old bagage seeps in and pulls..naws at me..still breathing
a host of other feelings like shame..guilt seep in
shame about my life style right now..and maybe what hasn't occured in my life..can't control that..don't want to
want..need..to give it all over to my higher power..my higher self creeping in for the kill
i need surgery of the brain..metaphorically
still struggling..which it would end..or at least the bad stuff
still using god and my higher power to release...and relieve the pains..all brought on by me
i am the problem..that ten percent of myself which i haven't found love for yet
That self love will come in time. I've found that my higher power has never let me down.
I clearly remember not being able to shut my brain off. I would get up in the morning and before my feet ever hit the floor, my mind was 10 miles down the road! LOL!
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"If a dog will not come to you after having looked you in the face, you should go home and examine your conscience." - Woodrow Wilson
