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I was just thinking how greatful I am for zoloft. I had started to feel annoyed by my baby and just wanted everyone to leave me alone. I wanted to run away. Its been about 7 weeks now that I've been on zoloft and I have noticed I don't get automatically angry at everything. My patience with the baby is back like it was when he was first born. I am able to listen to him cry and feel compasion and not be annoyed or angry that he's crying. Its wonderful. I feel like I can be a much better mother.
My therapist said that she thought my depression was a normal reaction to our therapy. She wasn't sure that I needed to be medicated so I went to my midwife and talked with her. I'm so glad I did. I feel alot better. I am still having trouble with getting things done during the day but at least I feel better towards my baby and my husband. Still working on my motivation to do things but its getting better. YAY
I don't really have the motivation to do basic things for myself, ie... my house is a mess. But I have been trying to work out here and there and when I do, it helps so much. My attitude is much better and I'm better with other people b/c I feel better.
If taking medication can help you, I think that's great. In my expereince w/ them and friends on them (I've known ppl who were on zoloft for many years) I personally think it is something to look at it and reconsider/re-evaluate every so often. I tried taking a few anti-depressants and they didn't work for me and I soon grew tired of experimenting and going through it, so again, if it's working for you, wonderful.
I've noticed that if I do something small, say take out the trash ~ some days I don't even do that ~ if I do a small task, it can enable me to feel like I have accomplished something and I will sometimes do another task. This doesn't always work but when it does it gives me some fuel and self-esteem. I also have to resist feeling guilty, pitiful or like aloser b/c I am not functioning very well right now. Believe it or not, I am doing more than I was even 6 months ago, so I have to look at it as growth and an improvement for me, reminding myself not to compare me to others.
Keep up your good work!
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
