The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I just got out of court with soon to be x. He came in all smiles and shaking hands- such a great guy on the outside.
My piece is that I need a little bit of boo hoo time to process and grieve and hide in my bed for up to one day only. I get to look at my part. I get to thank god I got out alive, with my life well intact. He may have hurt me but he did not break me or kill me. I left before that could happen, thanks to HP.
He is none of my business anymore, has not been for quite some time. He is on his own to do whatever he will to whomever he chooses. I get to look at my part. I get to take care of my self. I get to count my blessings. I get to experience freedom today, if I choose to.
Its a beautiful day, I can see that out the window. Its not Honolulu, its Minneapolis but there are many good things that I can do tomorrow when I am ready to go out and face the world again after some time spent grieving. I make a choice: today I need to boo hoo. Tomorrow I will go out and do something fun and cool. One day at a time, I will love myself exactly where I am at and feel all my feelings and honor and respect each one of them. I will rest as often as I need to because I am going though a lot right now and its very taxing.
Thank you all for listenings and for sending your quiet prayers. Hugs, J.
You are amazing! You've come so far. Grief is part of life. It's when we learn how to do it, that we can move on and get on with "living" rather than surviving.
Glad you are here and continue to share with your posts, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
I wish you peace and the ability to move forward while still accepting all you have experienced and lost. You've been through hell, Jean, but you are a survivor!
In your sorrow, I hope you were able to get a good'ol loud, deep, gut-wrenching cry going. Exhausting and painful, but so much healing power!
I wish you a nice day today and hope you do find something cool and fun to do.
Blessings, Lou
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Every new day begins with new possibilities. It's up to us to fill it with the things that move us toward progress and peace. ~ Ronald Reagan~
Sometimes what you want to do has to fail, so you won't ~Marguerite Bro~
