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I've had a couple of rough weeks. I have come to the realization that my little job here at the coast isn't the one for me. Hmmmm not realization..truth be acceptance. It is not a good paying job and my boss is an alcoholic. She and her husband are the general managers here and their normal day is to check into the office first thing in the morning and then check out to the bar for the rest of the day with cell phone in hand, just in case. At first, I thought I kind of like this no boss looking over my shoulder. Now I see, there is the rest of the story. I have been stuck in a couple of situations that I have had to cover for them and I don't like it. I am a pretty straight forward person and I don't like to fudge the truth. So I think I am going to give my notice for the middle of September and head back home.
I am also feeling like my relationship with my guy friend is coming to an end and am kind of grieving that.
This morning I just feel like it sucks being a 50 something and starting over again. I have told myself to think positive. Written a gratitude list and now am posting here. I think a meeting this evening might be in order, however some days I just don't want to do it.
Well I know the tendency to isolate well. I know it and know where it leads me so that is my ESH. Personally I have to have people around to check in with.
I get on overwhelm pretty quickly otherwise.
I am not sure if you have a plan be. What will you do, where will you live, how will you manage without a salary?
I have left many a job before and with no plan be it can be hard going. I also absolutely totally understand being fed up to the back teeth. I just suggest you make a plan be.
((((Greta))))))), I don't know about you....but the more I don't feel like going to a meeting.....the more I know that is where I need to be. So I get my butt to one.
I hope you get to a meeting tonight and find some serenity. I know when I lose mine I always find it at a meeting, in my literature, or on the other end of the phone when I call an al-anon. Funny never knew I left if in those places....but there is where I always find it.
Keep taking care of you.
Yours in recovery, Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
I am closer to a 60 something and starting over and it does suck. Scarey too. My colleagues and I were talking about how our company is dysfunctional and it feels like alcoholism too. Boundaries I guess. But hang in there. There are alot of us boomers who are starting over. I am looking at a major life and job change in the next month. I don't wanna do it but will probably have to. My AHsober of 35 years left. Trust my HP to guide me. Meetings helps. Work your program. And then turn it over to HP.
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