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I feel like my HP is speaking to me through my horoscope.
scorpio October 23-November 21
Thursday, Jun 26, 2008 There could be some responsibilities or obligations you have to other people that might be holding you back a bit right now. Your desire to have a good time might be tempered a bit by your sense of duty today. And it'll be up to you to figure out when it's a good time to express yourself and when it's a good time to restrain yourself right now. Just try not to let things stress you out too much today.
Be sure that you pay careful attention to how you go about expressing yourself, particularly where your friends or loved ones are concerned. You might be feeling a little too much like doing your own thing right now.
Thanks to everyone who responded yesterday. There were a lot of great sharings that have really made me open my eyes up. I realize that I don't have to do anything drastic to get myself to a better place. Doing that will only make things more difficult in the long run. I can take small steps and go day by day.
I haven't really talked to my A since Monday. We've exchanged daily pleasantries but I have not been ready to really talk to him. Last night he told me that he was going to go back to AA and really try it this time (heard this lots before) and get a sponsor and everything. He said that if that doesn't work then he is going to go back to rehab. I just told him that whatever he decided to do didn't matter to me. I couldn't help him and what he did was up to him. I can tell he is scared to death that I am going to leave him. I know I shouldn't, but I do get a little bit of pleasure out of that.
Baby Steps: Today I am opening up my own bank account to try to get some savings going. Work on a me plan instead of an us plan. Go to a f2f meeting! (still a bit scared of this but more determined to do it)
I really feel like I've already made a lot of progress and I actually feel good today. Thank you.
Be, this sounds like a great start. One day at a time. Here is a quote from the Alanon, One day at a time book Todays reminder " Regrets for hurtful things I have done to others may be healed by making amends as well as I can. Regrets for missed opportunities will vanish as I try to make wise choices today. Let me fill this one day with thoughts and actions I will have no need to regret. Let me undertake only as much as I can accomplish well, without haste or tension.
"Just for today I will live through this one day only and not tackle all my problems at once. Those of the past need not concern me today: future ones can be faced as they arrive"
Print me out and take me to the meeting with you in your pocket. Then if you need to, just reach into your pocket and squeeze.
The first meeting is always the hardest, just because we're not sure what we're walking into. Remember you're not obligated to say a thing if you don't choose to - just getting there can be enough for the first time. They'll probably introduce themselves by first name only, but for many of us that and "pass" was all we said for weeks. (Not me, lol; I was the one in the beginners' meeting going constantly, "I don't GET that!!!!)
