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Yesterday I had my 3-month post-cancer treatment checkup once more; it has been 15 months since my initial diagnosis of sarcoma in upper thigh with four months of chemo, and one year exactly since surgery to remove tumor, and then I had three months of radiation treatment. Well, bad news yesterday. As in 50% of all sarcoma cases, I now have lung mets (metastisis of malignant cells to lung via bloodstream/lymph). My CT revealed one spot at bottom of right lung. This will most certainly require more chemo and surgery. My doctor will meet with his team TH and I will receive a call as to the next step. I can barely absorb this latest occurrence so soon. I was praying to be in the 50% of sarcoma patients who DON'T get mets. But I wasn't one of the lucky ones. It is life-threatening, but sometimes you get five more years or in a few cases, a cure. It just depends. My primary tumor site is cancer free, but the little microscopic travelers have found their niche. My husband (also ill) is devastated and we obviously worry about how to cope with both of us ill. My son is very upset. His alcohol use may very well escalate as his method of killing emotion and pain is just that. So please, may I ask that when and if you say your prayers for others today, I and and my family need them very much. I have too much to stay here for including eventually seeing my son completely sober and my grandbaby growing into a strong, healthy child. I am pretty strong, but today is hard for us seeing the road ahead. Thank you for your support.
I am so sorry you are going through this. Of course I will add you to my prayers. Do not give up hope for your recovery as well as your son's. All things are possible. Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty <-- the cat
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Joy, I am so sorry to hear this bad news. I could tell you things like, keep a positive attitude, stand strong, and other meaningless cliches. But I can only imagine how hard those things are to do. So, I will offer you my prayers and MY positive thoughts to carry you through this ordeal. May the goodness of the world bless you and yours.
Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
Prayers of comfort, peace and HEALING going out for you and your hubby. Also that somehow this may be the spark that sets your son on the path to a road of recovery too.
prayers for the drs, nurses and entire team that the would have those most aggressive treatment plan for you and treat you with compassion and the utmost care.
big hugs, Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
did you think about going to a tumor board. They are at local teaching hospitals. Then you would have all the options open to you that you can have. I'm not saying this will fix everything you can just learn what your choices are.
Thanks to all for the reassurances and thoughts and ultimate prayers for us. All of my cancer treatment has been with a major cancer treatment center affiliated with university in our state. I have had nothing but praise for the doctors and staff involved with me. My case is being discussed Thursday afternoon, presented by my surgeon, to the team. That is how it is done there. I will do whatever I am asked/told although I must say that all day today I have sat in disbelief and grief that this has come to me so soon. Thanks again. I so appreciate being heard.
Dearest, The one thing I know is you are still you. We are never our malady or disease.
You and your loved one are here now,and as for all of us,hope for the next day. Believing the how many years thing or all that, for me just really is not in the scheme. To fight for, or long for that life for five years or maybe it will go into remission, takes away the precious moment we all are learning to be aware of.
It is my belief, to do my best to see each day, even when we feel barfy or worse,see the sky and trees, peoples smiles, friends who hold us as we relax and let it out.Look for the peoples hearts you will see. You affect everyone you are around,those people are there for you. If they seem cold I have seen people say,"hey!!" "here I am, I am not cancer or Aids or bulimic or heart attack....I am me."
My experience when we have these tough times we are most beautiful. I am in awe how you reached out and shared and took in the love offered here. It surely cannot be easy to reach out when told such news.
For me it is how we live when we go through life obstacles. If we can look at the whole picture. NOT always easy when we are bombarded like you feel.
However, I look at your post, I still see, though you both feel the way you do, you have your husband with you still. I see you coming here and letting it out. You tell us the positive things that still can be.
Here you just received difficult news, however here you are. You didn't let it make you burrow into cocoon and carry it. Again you are still you,still full of love, still can see creation,still able to share.
Thank you for coming here when you surely are grieving hard. you are living with this disease, you are not fighting it. Allowing the love to heal you. Every little tiny piece of good, does make a difference.I can tell you are one who will embrace that.
Sending you love, hope and faith in taking one day at a time.
