The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
but I got an email today from the group and thought I should pop my head in.
I read a lot here on my journey with my A. I cried so many tears, fought so hard, loved unconditionally, tried so hard not to blame.
He died, almost a year ago now. He was drinking again, lying about it - I caught him at it again.. told him he would kill himself if he didn't stop. He didn't stop and that was it. The official cause of death was cirrhosis. His liver was bright yellow, and weighed 9 lbs at autopsy. You really can drink yourself to death.
The kids and I are hanging on. I went into that relationship with nothing, and 16 years later I came out of it with 4 kids, and nothing else. There was no insurance, there was no help. But I will make it.
I pray for you all every day, for peace, for understanding, for health, and for happiness.
Just a quick hello from someone who cares.... sorry for your loss. I lost my boyfriend a long time ago (car accident, probably drinking that night), and there are no words to make it any different, just living One Day At A Time is all you can do. I remind myself of that every day. You just move onto other avenues of your life, but there is always that part of you in your mind. Be strong for your children, and lean on friends and family... and visit here often. It is a GREAT source of strength, and serenity. Everyone here truly does understand.
GreenGem, I am also so sorry for your loss. I love your positive attitude. It is one of the things that will get you through this. With that attitude and your HP you are going to be O.K. You are in my thoughts and prayers. RLC
