The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Tonight I say goodbye to the intern who has been treating me for the past 10 weeks. The 10 weeks flew by. I saw a therapist intern last year who helped me so much when I was leaving the A. Then I had no time or space to see her and that was difficult. I do not do well with goodbyes. I am hoping to get a referral otherwise I'm off to get other resources somewhere. Having therapy in the past few years has been complicated for most of the time I've been in crisis. I have some flexibilty in this job so I have been able to go.
I have barely scratched the surface of a few things but it did help to be supported and I am more and more clear that I need to do a fourth step somehow with my sponsor and move on from there. I am also clear that I'm moved a long way since last year when I felt tremendously fragile.
That must really hurt to say goodbye to someone you trust. And possibly "start over" so to speak with someone new. But you are doing it so you must be getting stronger! You show signs of strenghth and health to know you must do what you must do. We are all here "cheering you on" so please know we care!!
You know there are so many aspects to saying goodbye to the victim I was when I was with the A. One is to get rid of a lot of stuff that had to do with him, emails and references. I am working on that. A big summer project of mine is to clear out my storage which contains some of his stuff. I have not made up my mind what to do with it yet.
The point is I am saying goodbye there is not even a creek in the door open for him anymore not because I hate him but the person I was is gone.
