The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Next year it will one year since I moved out from the A. Not one year since I last spoke to him but one year since I took that irrevocable step of leaving him. I no longer feel grief stricken or rageful at the A. Certainly very angry but nothing like the rage I once felt.
My life is far from comfortable but it is less sticken then when I lived with the A. I know I leaned very much on this group to get me through this difficult year. Next week I will celebrate in some way. In this new life I get to celebrate rather than to dread. I am also going to take some time to set achievable goals for myself. I can move on. I will move on. I will not allow his experience of alcoholism to destroy and decimate my life for ever. maresie.
Hi and props to you for doing what you knew was best!
I am coming on the year anniversary of my AH having a total psychotic break and subsequent hospitalization for a months time. I feel the whole thing left me with PTSD (self-diagnosed, lol). I had to go near the hospital for a routine appt. for myself the other day and nearly had a real anxiety attack. Anyway, the meetings help as does this site, and I hope for the strength that you show. DOA
You probably can't see it yourself but it sure comes thru on the board your confidence and progress in the program. You have worked the program, given the disease back to the A, and taken good care of yourself. And you have been a great support to others. Celebrate!
Woohoo! Nice ESH... I am only 10-weeks into my year away! LOL But I see the hope in your post... that maybe I, too, will eventully stop the raging.
Each time I rage, I'm like, "Woah! Where did THAT come from? What is wrong with me? Oh, yeah... I have been affected by alcoholism. OK... one day at a time!"
Good luck Hope I am saying this in a years time my A has only been gone a week and the house is so much nicer already. Keep thinking positive things can only get better.
