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I came across this while looking up some information and thought I'd share it with you all. I'll never underestimate the power of alcohol and am so grateful for the experience, strength and courage of people in Alanon. The way I see it, each time any one of us is practicing some type of recovery, using some tool of the program, getting to meetings, being a sponsor, it's 1 win for human kind and 1 loss for alcoholism.
love in recovery, Maria
Alcohol Always Lied to Me
I Drank for Courage... and woke up night after night horrified.
I Drank for Sophistication... and became crude.
I Drank to find Peace... and ignited a war within myself.
I Drank to be Friendly... and became argumentative and nasty.
I Drank to be Sexy... and turned people off.
I Drank so that I could Relate to Others... and I babbled.
I Drank to put down Loneliness... and found myself retreating more and more into my shell.
I Drank to Relax... and woke up tense.
I Drank to be Entertaining... and became an obnoxious clown.
I Drank to Live More Fully... and contemplated suicide.
I Drank for Adventure... and discovered disaster.
I Drank to be more Honest... and insulted my friends.
I Drank to Quiet my Nerves... and woke up with hangover jangles.
I Drank to Feel Better... and ended up sick and throwing up.
I Drank to have Fun... and passed out in the middle of the party.
I Drank to Pep Myself Up... and ended up exhausted.
I Drank to feel Successful... a Big Shot... but ended up a failure.
I Drank for Security... and became afraid of my shadow.
I Drank to Feel Better about Myself... and ended up hating me.
I Drank to prove I could handle Alcohol... and ended up knowing it controlled me.
A Friend asked...
"But surely, now that you've been Sober awhile, it would take a lot of alcohol to put you back in that condition."
"Just One Drink," I answered!
~Author Unknown~
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
Two in a row Maria!! I'm blessed. I came to the board tonight before my own home meeting seeking some trigger that could help me honestly participate in the recovery of another alcoholic who after 13+ years is not consistently relapsing. She just did a rehab program and when she got home relapsed again. Today while I was up at her place for business she told me that she is again placing herself in rehap and this time a longer period of time and then she will enter a recovery home for long term sobriety support and lifestyle. She leaves tomorrow. She is so trying to abandon herself to her HP rather than this disease "that is trying to kill me" (her words) that she has included leaving her present lifestyle with home pets, money, etc., to get sober and stay sober. Like myself she doesn't mind dying. It's dying sick and insane that is not acceptable. I will copy your share here and give it to her tomorrow before she leaves. I have had my share of real miracles and have told my HP that this time I am being a bit demanding for one more...for all suffering alcoholics that honestly and willingly want to get and stay sober. The list of relapsers is growing. This disease wants to get us alone and helpless and then after kicking the stuffings out of us wants us dead. That is my opinion only based upon my long stay in recovery and watching this cunning, powerful and baffling disease work it's insidious, black magic.
I am glad I came. One other realization I had coming here is that I cannot do this alone and this family is soooo very ready to help so I ask you all to join with me in a prayer of demand. I can do that with my HP. My HP loves me so much that He doesn't even break stride when I get to demanding and even to tantruming about my "needs". I need to see others gain the peace of mind and serenity and sobriety that I have been blessed with. You promised me that you would always be there for me and I am demanding that you be there; that you come thru according to your loving will. You guys do it the best you can. That was my best and without fear that a bolt of lightening will be my pay off.
I will do my part. I will do my program. I will place myself in position to be a tool and instrument within your will to help others.
Mahalo again Maria. I will pass on your share. (((((hugs)))))
