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As you all know I had to take a huge step backwards and stop pretty much all my activity for a while in order to work on my health. My level of fatigue was so much that I was disabled. I could barely put one foot in front of another.
The good news is that my dogs and my cat seem to be thriving under the new regimen of stability and quiet. I am hardly out of crisis mode. I do note that one of my dogs who used to itch all the time is much calmer. She isn't pulling her hair out anymore.
The other good news is that since I surrendered and I had no choice since my fatigue was terrible, I am much more accepting of others. I may not like them, want to deal with them or any of those things but I've stopped being obsessed with changing anyone.
I continue to struggle pretty hard to find people who are supportive in my life. I put out and work on it but I end up having to let go of many new associations.
I heard today of a friend who lives some distance from me who is very ill. I'm quite at peace with that I have little in the way of monetary help to offer her. That's what she wants so I have elected not to contact her. I have also worked some of forgiving her for not being able to be "there" for me. I would have wrung myself through a series of wringers over that one before now.
There is a great sense of peace and calm in that I am not giving myself away night and day anymore.
I am of course far from being off the red zone. I have many issues that are urgent to attend to but there is progress.
Maresie - Those are words I needed to read, "There is a great sense of peace and calm in that I am not giving myself away night and day anymore."
I've gotten a real sense of peace today. Don't know how or why - but I'm just enjoying the ice cream while it's on my plate, ya know? Sometimes growth happens when we're not even aware of it. I'm grateful for that today. I'm grateful for the words of support that I've been given by everyone here. It's sinking into my little brain and helping we grow. I may relapse plenty more times before I arrive where I want to be. I'm grateful that I continue to be accepted back. This road has been rough.
Your posts always give me hope that I can keep moving forward. Keep on with my progress. In spite of obstacles. Thank you for that.
I hope your road continues to get smoother as time wears on.
Sounds like depression, fatigue is a huge part of depression, I know I lived it. My wish for you girlfirend, is that each day gets a little brighter. I hope for you, without hope life seems unmanagable.
Hang in there, trust me things do get better with time, time heals all wounds.
For me its a chronic medical condition. I think there is depression in there too which for me is a lot of anger which I don't know how to channel. I may try an anti depressant sometime later on. Right now one huge issue is that I am at last taking care of some of my medical issues.
I'm glad to hear your animal are feeling better, and so is mine. He's back to eating regularly.
It's gotta be harder when you are dealing with a medical condition. Would a multivitamin, or some extra B-complex help. I'm not one to believe in the anti-depressants today, only because the chemicals in them aren't what the brain needs either. Have to adjust getting on them, adjust to the side effects, (some cause more depression, weight gain, etc...), then adjusting getting off of them. I tried 5 different kinds, before I realized all I needed was exercise, vitamins, better eating schedule, healthier living, faith, counseling, support groups, and friends. I haven't taken one in 7 years. My problems causing the depression were life problems that couldn't be cured with a pill.
Sometimes finding an alternative such as natural is the best way, depending what the medical condition is.
I shut out friends at times too, then I find I need them. I don't know why I do this. But it has to do with the way I grew up learning relationships. People came and left so many times, that it has almost become a habit in my life. The minute I feel uncomfortable with someone or feel angry for whatever reason, I run also, kick them out of my life, then I isolate myself, then I get sick, depressed, and angry that no one is here for me. A vicious cycle that has to go.
It takes time to develop relationships with people, it takes time to get to know someone. The hardest part for me is to reach out. Sometimes I believe it's fear, fear they won't like me, fear that I won't like them, fear of hurt. Always keeping people at arms length. No more of that!!!
Huggs, Lady
Maresie, this was just posted on another group site I belong to.... thought it might help you....
quote: "being a former pharm rep, I would say the blame goes to the doctor and the pharmacist. The doctors are given FDA approved literature from the reps and a scripted sales pitch...which is also FDA approved.
Bottom line though...AD's are not really appropriate for 90% of the people they are prescribed for. As the recent news has shown...they are only effective for a limited number of depressions.
So, yes, beware. AND, a family doctor should not be the one prescribing. I always advocate a psychiatrist for just these types of reasons."
