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I think I always seem to be reporting some disaster or another but I am actually working super hard to get to better self care. I managed in the short period of time I was unemployed (I am grateful for that even though I really could have done with a longer break) and get some medication I really needed.
I have been working on making the tiny tiny space I live in more habitable. That means basically putting everything in storage. I really struggle with that reality but that is my reality and I have to work on it. I work super hard to give my pets a structure and to make their lives as pleasant as possible.
The two psychopaths (sorry I can't think of any other way to describe them) moved out. One was made to leave because he caused so many problems. As a result I have access to a kitchn which I have not had for months well since I moved there last September. There is no more drama and crisis. I can't say its pleasant to live with people but its bearable. Before it was totally unbearable.
I got over a really awful flu. I took care of myself. I did not get bronchitis, did not end up in the hospital.
I set boundaries with a man I met who I was not even aware wanted a date. I held to them. He left me alone.
The A called I did not re-engage with him.
I got out of an awful job with a really nasty boss and got a new one. I can't say its the greatest but it is keeping a roof over my head. So far I have not got the commute down right.
I just heard I am going to be able to see an intern for 10 weeks which will really help me in setting goals.
I have a sponsor and am working the steps. I've had quite a few sponsors none of them, only one worked with the steps with me the rest of the relationships fell apart over time. Self care is huge in there!
I have had many many problems still do, life is far from rosy. There is not one day I do not feel overwhelmed. Nevertheless when I look at this list I do see I make progress and things do improve, slowly but surely.
I'm still exhausted, fed up, lonely, poor, desperate and afraid but I have a program and I know if I keep taking actions things will and do change.
Hey add to your list helping to relieve somene of some severe pain by sharing. You have no idea how much you helped me with your post. God used you to do something quality experienced mental health professionals had not been able to facilitate. In case you didn't read it please see my post answer to HP works fast- want you to know how much your input helped. Thank you so much!
Maresie, I remember leaving an A BF many years ago, moved into a very small 2 bedroom apt with my little children. We were used to having a lot. We ended there with a plaid couch, with no legs on it. Barely anything. Those were some of the best years of our life. You have come so far...see what happens when we "let go and let God!" He begins to work on our behalf, as we trust Him. He begins to put people places and things in front of us that are safe and healthy.
I have been following your posts. I can see you are making some progress in your life and with your program. Glad to hear some things are going better with your living situation, and also with your job.
Praying for things to keep looking up for you.
Love and Blessings,
Claudia
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A person's a person no matter how small --Dr Suess
Sounds like a little bit of a gratitude list to me! Get rid of job w/ bad boss--yeah!, get rid of 2 psycho roomies--yeah!!! able to keep some boundaries intact--Yeah!! got a sponsor and working steps--Yeah!!
Life is still hard, but you have made some fantastic progress!
I am grateful but I am also a long long way from being out of the unmanageable zone. I work on things daily and sometimes progress is slow. I am almost one year out of the home I shared with the A. I almost wrote the A's house, for sure it was never "my" home. He had all the power that's for certain.
I am still very very very much in unmanageable on finances, home, isolation, debt, health, emotions and more. I will have a new therapist from next week and I know that has to help.
