Feeling a strong pull to upset the apple cart - Al-Anon Family Group

carolinagirl · ~*Service Worker*~

Feeling a strong pull to upset the apple cart

babysteps · Senior Member

I get to feeling that way sometimes too. Easy does it. The major changes I have made in moments like this often have negative consequences I fail to recognize. I have found the best thing to do is something simple, yet dramatic, like getting a new hair style or rearrange the furniture. :)

carolinagirl · ~*Service Worker*~

LOL never thought about that, rearranging furniture might be a good one for me! I think I'm kind of locked into the way things are though, they only fit one way! I usually find that when I make plans at times like this everything falls together and works out for me. Maybe that's why I keep doing it.

Diva · ~*Service Worker*~

I understand that strong need to start over CG, albeit for a different reason.

Used to be that whenever the A would go on a binge I would sell the house and buy another. Even went to another city a couple times, hoping (I guess) to flee the misery, sadness, disappointment, and hurt. FInally landed in the city I have always loved -San Antonio- and here is where I plan to stay. I love my home, my surroundings, and this beautiful place. I think I finally figured out that running doesn't solve anything. If he drinks, so be it.

I like the rearranging the furniture idea. LOL!!! Doing that affords a change without doing anything drastic.

Wanted you to know someone shares your need to change things.

Best wishes,

Diva

silverbrumby · Veteran Member

((Carolinagirl)) I sooo relate to what you're feeling right now.
For me I have come to believe it is my form of escapism. And I start living in this fantasy world of "what could be" rather than "what is".
I suppose it is a form of projection. I get onto real estate sites, jobs pages you name it and if the Higher power has not authorised it (which he hasn't yet for me) it just never happens.
I agree with babysteps, make small changes. Hair, furniture the garden. Join a club at least if you hate it you can shave it, move it back and drop out....LOL !!
When I get restless I move furniture, my furniture has made a thousand miles around my house over the years and I have only moved once in 20 years!!
But I relate, and I have it now big time. I just want to get a letter, an email a phone call that will change my life forever......
But I think this escapism (for me) comes along and distracts me from what is good and right under my nose. I have had 2 precious weeks living without hubbyA and I have been able to make the bedroom all nice and feminine, and wake up feeling like a princess instead of someone dragged through a cesspit. One day at a time, I am free to experience new things as my emotions untangle from the knots of alcoholism....
Just like an alcoholic quits the drink one day at a time, I have to quit the alcoholic one day at a time..... Spirit, strength and hope in alanon.....Bless you....

Tuggboat · Senior Member

If I want to make a big change I let it begin with me, mostly cause I hate to move furniture.

How can you do that. I moved it seemed a zillion times when I was little and still remember the refrigerator smashing my hands. They used to have such sharp and dirty edges. Oh my, anything but moving! No No, I'd rather lift the heaviest character defect than another refrigerator.

i made a big change the other day. I changed to Mango notebook paper. My old world all written on papaya paper just started to crumble apart. It looked like my life was about to be composted and then fear of all fears. The last page of my lucky fruit paper.

Nothing has been the same since I switched to this Mango paper, new jobs, new tasks, new accounts and new people. Just inventory and reorganize your life on this stuff and nothing will be the same. Why I can almost feel the tropical breezes of Thailand or hear the Monkeys of Costa Rica. I can't imagine why I feared it in the first place.

http://www.ecopaper.com/little-d-na-mango-paper-journal-80204

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TUgg

-- Edited by Tuggboat at 22:16, 2008-02-15

maresie · ~*Service Worker*~

I think I've battled this all my life. Great topic.

Maresie.

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