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I know I haven't posted in a while. I have been reading though and working on taking care of my own things instead of my a's. Still have not been to a F2f meeting though. I have felt strongly complelled to do so though.
My husband (my a) had a seizure on Tuesday night. It was his first one ever. We think it was an interaction of his medication. One of which he was not supposed to be taking. I was afraid and still am. I feel very sad and overwhelmed since then. I am not sure what to do with myself sometimes. I am hearing the sounds and seeing his body and face over and over again. I have a 17 month old to take care of and she is my light at the end of the tunnel. I am trying to be strong for her so that she feels safe but sometimes it is just too hard.
This has been piled ontop of a laundry list of issues that I have been dealing with. Two weeks ago, I had went to stay with my parents because my a and all his sh*t was just too much to handle. Marital problems, work stress, alcoholism, pain killer addiction, and it seems the list just keeps going.....Some days I feel like I just can't do it anymore.
One saving grace is that I think the seizure opened his eyes and will HOPEFULLY get him the help that he needs.
Please pack up that baby and find a meeting , you need support . You will find what u need in our Program do it for your child . Waiting for him to wake up and see that this is not going well is a waste of your time , get help for you now . Absolutley nothing changes til someone changes . don't give up hope there is always hope . Louise
I agree with abby, a face to face group is the ticket. You need that kind of lovin'!! I cannot possibly say enough good about F2F, it literally saved my life and the life of so many. Just go.
I hope that it did open his eyes. But, regardless of what he does, are you ready to get the help that you need??
Please try to get to a F2F meeting. There is nothing like being in a room full of women (and sometimes men) who may not know my last name, but who know me better than anyone else. They know my life, because they live it too. I don't have to explain or justify anything. I don't even have to say a word and they all understand. Please take advantage of the love and support that is waiting for you...
And keep coming back!!
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Do not be anxious about tomorrow; tomorrow will look after itself. The Bible, from Courage to Change, p.138
If I based my decision making on what other people would do (or think I should do), I'd never be able to make a decision. It doesn't matter in the long run, whether or not he chooses recovery. What matters, is you taking care of you and your baby. You doing what is in the best interest of your family. Please get to some f2f meetings. They can be so helpful. Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
