The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am feeling much much much better today. Absolutely nothing about my situation has changed. I am still broke, fed up, tired, worn out, living in absolute craziness. I may get fired today and they may hold off for a few weeks. Who knows. I know I will deal with it whatever happens. I know I can deal with it that's all that matters isn't it. I can deal with whatever life throws at me.
The only thing that has changed is that I feel heard. I am not absolutely totaly abandoned as I was with the A. I am not dealing with the insurmoutnable day in day out. I can break it down.
I am looking for another job. I am trying to think what my options are. I have credit cousnelling going today.
Baby steps. Baby baby steps.
I can move on.
I will not be destroyed after what I have been through.
I so appreciate everyone's support, suggestions and more. I am so up to my eyes in it.
For osme reaosn I am no logner afraid. I woke up today and my door to my room was open and my cats got out. Normally I would be full of fear. I jsut went out int he back yard and got them. I don't know how the door got open. I will just have to put a chair in fornt ot if or whatever. What a way to live. I will never ever live like this again I know that much. This is the last time.
I am strong, stronger than I think and I will get through this.
good for you.... sounds like your program is kicking in... nice how that happens.. even when we slip in to old thinking.. the way we can recover today.. and get back on track...
But know we love you lots no matter what shape you come here in...come as you are and we will listen and love you regardless, unconditionally. Hugs galore, J.
What I have done in the past is keep one credit card good and let everything else go. Try really hard not to use that card unless I know I'm going to have the cash to fully pay it off within 6 months. Remember, it's seven years from your last contact with them so if you intend to stop paying just cut off all communication asap. Sometimes this is what you have to do to move on.
My credit is fairly bad but my credit cards and bills that are actually mine are all paid on time always and that is reported too. I still get credit card offers in the mail AND I heard a thing on the news last night that banks are getting desperate because of mortgages falling and they are going to be giving away credit cards soon. Even if you let it all go and say F it, you can still come back from that.
