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So the cycle again and again.....the controled drinking, the binging, the broken promises, it's started all over again. Sad to think I had started to believe by not only his words but by his actions. I was headed out in October to buy my Harley. Not now, it is safer to tuck the money away into CD's. Until I can ride myself. He is not going to ruin this for me....NOT THIS TIME... He was out all day with his buddy(s), I talked to him on his way home, he didn't sound right, but assured me all was okay...then I got a text from my son (that just got out of the military and is living here with his family) I called him right away....he said "Mom you need to talk to him, he pulled in the driveway and took so long coming in, I went out to check on him, he was barely awake in his car!!!!" We all know talking doesn't help, yelling doesn't help, threatening doesn't help, getting angry doesn't help....but I am learning how to help me. I need to stop and think, about all my decisions that affect my life, my children, and my grandbabie's lives.....to protect me and take care of me.... This is the hardest part of living with an A, knowing I love him in a way that I don't think he is capable of without help (i.e. treatment) Thanks for prayers and good thoughts you are sending my way.... Hugs Mare
((()))) Mary it is okay to be a little selfish. I know it is not easy with that constant knot in your stomach wondering what is going to happen next. Remember the serenity prayer and we are here for you. LUv Leo xxx
Prayers on are on the way for you. I truly believe you will have your Harley when the time is right. Of course you must do what is right for you and your family. You know how to work your program. You've always been a great example of that. Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong, Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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