dear All,
have had to start putting my own patch in order and have contacted by PhD supervisor after a long time, putting him in the picture, I have not said anything about the ex-A as it has nothing to do with my difficulties with my work and I need to take responsibility for me. I know without this board, I would be so screwed and at the moment I am really worried about what way things are going to turn out but I plan to do what I said I was going to do, send my supervisor the index for the work, have sent a progress email. I really feel sick as I was supposed to send this sometime ago. I have not made any excuses, have just said that I was not content with quality of my work which is the truth.
The ex-A goes into hospital on Sunday, for a coloscopy and endoscopy, we have become very close through all this, though he still drinks. I have helped him with his affairs while taking care of my own and he has been very kind to me through some of the stress that I have been going through also. I have told Patrick our son, the truth about him going into hospital and managed to overcome my dislike of my father and his second wife enough to get some recycled logs to start fires with, so I'm proud of myself for that as both have been upleasant to me through alcohol abuse.

I know other peoples stories are a lot harder than mine but I would appreciate all your prayers and advice. I do find it hard to face up to things that get far worse if there is a delay involved. talk to you soon