The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
As you know the last few months have been horrendous for me.. And I have had to do some growing up....Now I have come to the conclusion, I need to put Ally first for a change..I have spent my whole life, being a caretaker, people pleaser, doormat, etc....I can no longer do it..... It is causing me great distress, and unhappiness...
So I am doing something I should have done a long time ago.. I am setting up my future... I have detached.. (not completely)..lol... from the A in my life. I am back at my work after four months of being off... It feels good, I feel useful again... Most of you know I work with the terminally ill..Yes It can be stressfull.. I had a patient who I had a great relationship with. He called me "matron"..lol
He loved to hear my stories, my al-anon, my every day adventure.....lol He was in his early fiftys, and I kept him young..I sent him a postcard from france...Proud that I had been on a plane..And I could picture him smiling...
Two days before I went back to work, he passed away..This is the reminder I needed that indeed Life is too short..
So Its Time I moved on with MINE... I am applying to the nursing College, and If I am successful, that is three years of my life training.. So I am starting "Today", to withdraw from you lot....
I really need some self-care right now..I know you will all understand..
I will still pop in from time to time to see how you all are doing..
I have confidence in you all, that you have a strong will and can do this..
Loved every min of your humour, tears, all emotiions we have experienced together..