The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
i won't make it to face to face meeting tonight. after i finish typing this i will probably go lay down. i have spent the past few days in bed, and, i am tired of it.
i went to the doctor after hitting the deer. he said , ''you look run down, worn out, exhausted and not well''. sent me to hospital for exrays and blood work. i have been home restings since.
i am starting to feel better, i am not so tired, but , i still don't have the energy to do much. not to mention PAIN !!!!! my back is very sor i think what my doctor said scared my family. nobody ever tells the 'east end snob' she looks run down, exhausted,worn out and not well. quite simply because she never does. it is amazing, that one can dysfunctionally function through this disease. you know, look alright on the out side, but, having the crazies inside your head. anyway, my family is quietly taking care of my needs. things i cannot do for myself. [i do not do well letting others do for me] i need help this week because i did get hurt the night i hit the deer. the impact jarred my neck and back very badly. i keep hearing people say i am lucky to be alive. my brain is not taking that in to well. all i know is i hurt and people have been soooooo nice. but, now i am bored. taking care of oneself can be quite dull. i have to let others carry on with their own business. i haven't even been able to make a phone call to see how everyone is doing because sitting up for to long is much to painful. i am smiling as i write this........., i have seen this thing called DIGNITY at work in my loved ones this past week. they have been doing for themselves what i usually do for them. [that amounts to about everything]. they seem to walking a little taller, less irritable, kinder to one and other. geesh.................., who would have thought minding my own business would have had such pleasant repercussions. i need to sign off now, just wanted to share what higher power has revealed to me during this time. i hope the next time i need a revelation, i will not have to have an accident to experience it.
perhaps i could put my idle hands to work doing some hand stitching. something i enjoy and have not done for a very long time.
