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Lyne · Lyne

For Monday, 9/21, the writer talks about dreading change and being comfortable with chaos. Since change is inevitable, the author decided not to assume that change is bad. Actually, they see that changes have had a positive effect, such as coming to alanon. The writer still has many fears, but tr...

Freetime · Freetime

The author of today's reading in Hope for Today came into Al-Anon not interested in a Higher Power and skeptical of all the God references in the Twelve Steps. They didn't think they wanted or needed a higher power. Others in the program shared their own experiences without telling the author what to...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning everyone- Todays reading is a description of the reason we come together in Alanon. The writer describes feeling different when he/she began attending meetings. It is difficult for the writer to see any similarity between him-her/self and others in the meetings. Although there was a...

Kokopelli · Kokopelli

So while going through the process of divorcing my AH we are still in the same house. Every day I get my guilt trip lectures from 15 minutes to an hour, then switches to begging and pleading, then repeat. On the days and nights he decides to argue with me that it's my fault and leave to a friend's house, I a...

mamalioness · mamalioness

Hey everyone!! Missed you guys, and after Linda went to nursing home, I really began to THINK, reflect on WHY so many back spasms, bee stings, seems my body was under some "attack" the bee sting was my not paying attention but the spasms, I truly believe are stored pain, trying to get out With no Linda to...

mamalioness · mamalioness

When Betty passed away, I felt like the entire bottom of this boat got blown away...Didn't know what to do or what to think, didn't know if I even wanted to hang out here at all. But BOTH of you have done such a great job, not taking her place as that is hers, noone could do that, but you two have filled her spac...

Fedora · Fedora

Today is a strange day. I finally realized that I am not going to be more clever than Alcoholism. For all my smarts, living with an active alcoholic is requiring too many mental (and financial) gymnastics in order to survive. So I told the spouse that we are done. He actually told me that he was going to...

Maresie888 · Maresie888

I still have to deal with my forner roommate because my dog is atayimg at his house. I am within a few weeks of being able to bring ny dog back to the building i live in. The rennovation of the building (which has been all year) is almost over For 20 years I have been friends with someone who deliberately tri...

Skorpi · Skorpi

In today's reading from courage to change, the author reflects on how, in the face of seemingly impossible problems, it is easy to believe that our most negative thoughts indicate reality. Worst-case-scenarios are plead in a convincing way, and a positive outcome seems impossible. However, the l...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Posting early for tomorrow....the reading discusses the reality that all humans want to fit in and be a part of. Balance is the key and most of us who arrived at Al-Anon affected by this disease lost our balance along the way. People pleasing becomes destructive when we ignore our own needs and sacri...

Enigmatic · Enigmatic

Today's page touches on a foundational concept of AlAnon: The level of felt Serenity is ours to control or give away, determined in part by how we choose to respond to people and situations around us.If we stop reacting to or acting upon everything that comes our way, instead choosing the factors that...

Friedmom · Friedmom

Hi, I'm new here and struggling with not being a co-dependent enabler for my dual diagnosis daughter. I know there are steps, but how do I find them? Where do I begin? I'd like to jump right in and learn as much as I can to try to make this horrific pain and devastation become less intense. I'd really like to...

DavidG · DavidG

Our welfare authorities are called Oranga Tamariki, or OT for short. The name means "healthy children". A goal and a vision that most everyone share. My nephew and partner had had their two kids taken off of them- and they are in foster care. I won't tell their story, as such, but share mine- and the...

Geoff · Geoff

So I was told yesterday that my AH wife has been going around and telling all the guys she works with that we are separated and not that we are on a trial separation as we agreed too. I guess I was the only one who was under the impression was a trial to figure out what she wanted. So I sent a text to her family so t...

Lyne · Lyne

The reading for Monday, 9/7, says that we should not look for pity. We should not expect other members to tell us our resentments are justified, nor should we take aggressive action. We hopefully will learn to change the way we see our family problems, and resist aggression by using dignity and pois...

Kokopelli · Kokopelli

Having to divorce my AH becuase I need to not because I want to has started making me think of all the traditions we have created in the past 17 years. With Fall right around the corner, Fall was our favorite season. We hosted a chili gathering, always spent Thanksgiving with just us, football watching,...

Lyne · Lyne

The reading for Monday, 9/14, talks about how the author decided it was best not to hope for anything. Life lessons were too painful, hopes became shattered, and despair set in. The writer says eventually they were completely shut down emotionally, and they refused to care or hope for anything. Bu...

Geoff · Geoff

Boundaries these are the guide lines we agreed too when getting together. There were some simple ones like don't commit adultery. When this happened and I chose to try to work it out we setup other boundaries. Like personal issue between the two of us is only meant for therapy or close family not a membe...

DavidG · DavidG

i bike around the valley a fair bit. The bike has about 18 gears. A long way away from the old bone shaker I rode as a kid. About 12 years ago i was biking around the lake. I looked around and realised that the trees were moving around- and even the hills were moving. The hills moved much slower than th...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning everyone: The focus of todays reading is self awareness and how it can help us navigate the experiences of our lives. The writer describes having grown up with an alcoholic father who flew into rages. Because of the fear associated with these, the writer often would attack or provoke fi...

Enigmatic · Enigmatic

Today's page asks for our reflection to identify what really holds us back from turning things over to a higher power (HP) or God. It may not be an HP issue, or nature of the problems we hold on to. It likely is a growth opportunity to Let Go, Let God/HP.There is a cost to putting faith in something greater:...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Today's reading is all about denial. It suggests that when we come to Al-Anon, we often don't even recognize the disease of alcoholism in our lives, let alone how far it has affected and impacted us. As denial begins to lift, we often are horrified at the lies we told ourselves and others. The readin...

Freetime · Freetime

Doing the Fourth Step inventory, the author of today's reading thought they were doing it all wrong. Then they realized, with Higher Power's help, that their life-long problem had been that they always felt inadequate -- no matter what they were doing, it wasn't good enough. Now they have a better...

Geoff · Geoff

Well after 4 days of this. She spoke with her sponsor ( a woman) and her counselor/therapist from the center (the only one I trust he is a nice guy). They both recommended that we do a trial separation for 2weeks to see if this is what she and I actually want. I have been broken up all day cause I knew that this...

Skorpi · Skorpi

Hello MIP! In today's reading in C2C, the author shares that they sometimes don't know how to ask for help. And so, instead of asking for help in an Al-Anon meeting, the author sits quietly and listens. From the outside, maybe people think everything is fine because the author might look calm, when in...

Maresie888 · Maresie888

This is the tine of year that I.usually simply slip and slide into wallowing in self pity. I get into comparison with s few se kn ected targets. Of courss I can only imagine wgar other people have. I do not really know Thiz year with Covid 19, having to move out of ny apartment, being sick, being separate...

Geoff · Geoff

She is going to stay here and apparently we are separated but going to stay under the same roof. I told her she needs to decide what to do by the end of the week. I am not sure if I can handle being close to her as I just want to kiss and hold her. All I get to do is watch her walk away and I don't have a clue if this is th...

SunnyFrogs · SunnyFrogs

It's true,all my expectations with/of AH always lead to disappointment. Why is that so hard to accept? Why is it so hard to stop expecting anything better or different? Every single time I expect something I am setting my own self up. He's not doing that to me,I am doing this to myself. I don't know wh...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning everyone: Todays reading is about the strength of alanon literature and the support by others in Alanon, especially when getting to in person meetings is not feasible. The writer describes the Lone Member Service; this is something I am not familiar with but it is described as a way for...

Geoff · Geoff

Well we talked it out this morning over coffee. It turns out I was right she isn't in love with me she was just trying to make it work for convenience and the kids she doesn't share the same feeling I do for her. We are going to try separation see what happens from there.. She cannot invest anytime into our r...

Geoff · Geoff

Well it my AW birthday today. We just finished opening gifts with the kids had a coffee and she just received a text from her guy friend mother saying call me asap please. She did and it turns out he is in the hospital. He OD on his DOC and now because his mother can't drive him and his girl friend also doesn'...

PosiesandPuppies · PosiesandPuppies

Today's reading is about the after effects of Letting Go. Once we begin focusing on ourselves and let go of the obsession & worry for others, the author found that there was a whole lot of free time that took some time to adjust to. The author states, "We knew how to live in a state of crisis, but it ofte...

Freetime · Freetime

Calmness of mind -- the writer of today's page faced a dilemma of how to fill the extra time gained by not focusing on other people's crises. Now that the mind has become quieter, how to fill it without grabbing for old fears, how to be mentally busy without creating our own crisis which lets us feel bus...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Today's reading is all about seizing the day, the moment, etc. Many of us put our dreams and promises on hold waiting for that special day - that one day when .... Some of us were waiting for the disease to be cured, others were waiting on something else - no matter. Al-Anon has helped us to see that toda...

Kokopelli · Kokopelli

So my AH is saying he is going to fight for the house after twice now he said I could have it, back and forth this is going. No kids, dogs with special needs, been in the house for 25 years. I'm worried to fight for the house if he wants it to becuase the judge can say sell it and split the money, were in FL. He do...

Maresie888 · Maresie888

One of the traits I have seen with the alcoholic qualifier is the need to make me feel insecure and jealous After the qualifier wooed me and appeared to be a devoted boyfriend he switched lkterally overnught to quite deliberately trying to make me feel insecure and absolutely comoulsively discount...

Skorpi · Skorpi

Hello MIP! In today's reading the author reflects on step 1: We are powerless over alcohol and our lives have become unmanageable. Over the years, the author did a lot of thinking about step 1, and recently, began to do a lot of feeling about the step as well. The primary emotion the author shared was g...

DavidG · DavidG

Disease, illness, sickness, malaise. It is cunning and baffling. I have heard the word "dysfunctional" bandied about. I think that that is far too soft a word. Damaging, dangerous, even life threatening, describes it better. I have been involved with my nephew G. His two kids have been taken int...

Fedora · Fedora

I just told AH that I'm getting the kids signed up for counseling. He is Furious. I am standing my ground. I know enough about this disease now to know that my kids are going to need to have tools in place. They're too young for Al-A-Teen. (At least the littler one is). I want them to have someone they can t...

SerenityRUS · SerenityRUS

I'm going to any ways. Basically long story short this has been a year of revelation of how much I get to control myself and not others. My latest run in with my X involved my youngest and an iPad for singing lessons. S/he (cause I'm pretty sure his wife was involved) was very entertaining. They overp...

2HP · 2HP

From the beginning, I was told that "the instructions" for recovery were in the Twelve steps. Sometimes (and especially when nothing feels like its working anymore) I like to re-read the instructions. Many of us are facing challenges this year, and I thought a discussion on the instructions coul...

Geoff · Geoff

I just wanted to say good morning to you all. My wife an I have our couples session today and the previous ones usually end up with us worse off than when we start. We usually right after just talk about it without our therapist and always work it out on our own. I feel like today will be different it will only...

Seahorse7 · Seahorse7

Whenever my AH takes vacation days I know we are in for daily drinking because every day off is a drinking day. And I also expect that at some point during vacation he will lash out at me. This time, we are vacationing at home because of Covid, though we are able to go do things outdoors. I have been tellin...

Enigmatic · Enigmatic

Today's page addresses the loneliness that may come from feeling that no one truly understands what we are going through. We are reminded, however, that we can free ourselves from this at any time by refocusing our mind on blessings, rather than the real or perceived deficits in our life.Nothing has...

Geoff · Geoff

This weekend stared off on a sour note for my spouse and I. I did realize it was all due to me and my attitude. I was letting the what if's control my days and by the end of the week I was in a terrible mood even staurday morning when we have coffee together on the porch and she reads from her daily book it was not e...

Lyne · Lyne

The reading for Monday, 8/31, reflects upon people saying its a nice day when the weather is fine. What we learn in alanon is that the kind of day it is, does not depend upon the weather. Instead, the kind of day we are having is attributed to our attitudes and reactions to what s going on around us. The...

Matoma · Matoma

I am reading all of these posts and thinking do I really want to do this? I feel very naive and, quite frankly, stupid. I started seeing someone last fall. I work with him and knew that he went through a 30 day rehab and 60 day IOP last year, before we started seeing each other. I worked with his family to h...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning everyone: I wouldnt typically start with the Thought for the Day at the end of todays page, but it is such a powerful statement Im thinking about it like bookends for each day, a morning and evening reflection. It reads: In Al-Anon Ive learned to savor the tiny, specific, beautiful momen...

PosiesandPuppies · PosiesandPuppies

Sorry for the late start, MIP Family! Today's reading is from Courage to Change. It speaks about Step 8. "Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all." The author describes Step 8 as "the means to release myself from unrelenting guilt." They go onto say that by m...

DavidG · DavidG

I picked up the three A's here. I was always cautious about not using conference approved material. Maybe hypervigilant, even. So- the three A's appear in a reading for Courage To Change. Through our three daily readers there are over 1000 entries. So there is a fair bit of scope here. I believe that...

Fedora · Fedora

This morning the police called me out of my class to alert me that my AH had been taken to the local jail because of DUI. This is number 2. The city police called the campus police to try to find me. The campus police officer was so kind. The city police officer were so kind. I appreciated that. They had to go...

dragonfly04 · dragonfly04

I haven't posted in awhile and I have been so busy with work lately. It's a busy time right now. I haven't kept up with my readings or self care the last 2 weeks. My feelings are all over the place. My bf is an active alcoholic and it's putting a strain on me. I try not to argue with him. I will excuse myself from...

DavidG · DavidG

Or close to home, anyway. I visited my nephew and his partner yesterday. His partner is going away to rehab. on Monday morning- for 12 or 16 weeks. Their kids have been taken off of them- and they want their kids back. I think they have along long way to go. To use a cricketing term- I am a wee way out o...

Freetime · Freetime

Today's author learned about trust and worthiness from her first Al-Anon sponsor. She learned she could trust her sponsor to be gentle, and also to say what needed to be said. The sponsor helped her overcome her self-doubt. When our author was in despair of ever feeling better, the sponsor pointed...

Geoff · Geoff

2020 has been the worst year for many, but it has been especially terrible for me. I got to start the year off with planning an intervention for my wife. It all started back in fall of 2019 when her father passed away. I had been busy with doing the lions share of taking the kids to sports volunteering for Ho...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning everyone: Todays reading is about the important relationship of sponsor/sponsee in the program. It is written from the point of view of the sponsor, and how seeing the growth in recovery of a sponsee is such a big part of the program. I have not had the experience of being a sponsor, but my...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Today's reading discusses the first 3 steps in our program. The writer was disappointed when the first meeting attended did not give out a 'do/don't list' on how to change the alcoholic. Instead, the 12 Steps were provided. Desperate for change, she opted to give the steps a try. By the second meet...

Maresie888 · Maresie888

In 2008 I was in this program holding on by bare knuckles. I.left the qualifier, was deeply in debt, barely enoloyed and marginally housed. Nevertheless, largeky because of the chaos he created, I left When I.leff the qualifier back then with ni job.and no money the economy took a real downturn. I....

Kokopelli · Kokopelli

While going through the beginnings of divorcing my AH, we have routines from 17 years together, making his lunch, doing his laundry, calling eachother pet names. How do you cope with this? How do you shut this down and tell him he needs to work on getting better. I want to still be his best friend and h...

Kokopelli · Kokopelli

I have my first appointment with the lawyers assistant, a financials appointment, next Thursday. My AH has contacted journey pure and said they cant see him till late next week. He even did a couple things around the house, was shocked. I express how happy I am that he reached out and has an appointment...

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	C2C, 9/21 (Preview) For Monday, 9/21, the writer talks about dreading change and being comfortable with chaos. Since change is inevitable, the author decided not to assume that change is bad. Actually, they see that changes have had a positive effect, such as coming to alanon. The writer still has many fears, but tr...	Lyne	4	464	Sep 21, 2020 by Maresie888
	Hope For Today - September 18 (Preview) The author of today's reading in Hope for Today came into Al-Anon not interested in a Higher Power and skeptical of all the God references in the Twelve Steps. They didn't think they wanted or needed a higher power. Others in the program shared their own experiences without telling the author what to...	Freetime	4	571	Sep 20, 2020 by mamalioness
	Hope for Today Sept 20 (Preview) Good morning everyone- Todays reading is a description of the reason we come together in Alanon. The writer describes feeling different when he/she began attending meetings. It is difficult for the writer to see any similarity between him-her/self and others in the meetings. Although there was a...	yanksfan51	4	415	Sep 20, 2020 by JerryF
	What is this lonliness feeling? (Preview) So while going through the process of divorcing my AH we are still in the same house. Every day I get my guilt trip lectures from 15 minutes to an hour, then switches to begging and pleading, then repeat. On the days and nights he decides to argue with me that it's my fault and leave to a friend's house, I a...	Kokopelli	5	841	Sep 20, 2020 by newnoz
	Hey Everybody!!! (Preview) Hey everyone!! Missed you guys, and after Linda went to nursing home, I really began to THINK, reflect on WHY so many back spasms, bee stings, seems my body was under some "attack" the bee sting was my not paying attention but the spasms, I truly believe are stored pain, trying to get out With no Linda to...	mamalioness	13	3681	Sep 18, 2020 by mamalioness
	Gratitude to Iamhere and Freetime (Preview) When Betty passed away, I felt like the entire bottom of this boat got blown away...Didn't know what to do or what to think, didn't know if I even wanted to hang out here at all. But BOTH of you have done such a great job, not taking her place as that is hers, noone could do that, but you two have filled her spac...	mamalioness	5	3729	Sep 18, 2020 by mamalioness
	I am powerless over this disease. I am done trying to pretend I can manage it. Decided I need to file for divorce. (Preview) Today is a strange day. I finally realized that I am not going to be more clever than Alcoholism. For all my smarts, living with an active alcoholic is requiring too many mental (and financial) gymnastics in order to survive. So I told the spouse that we are done. He actually told me that he was going to...	Fedora	9	4028	Sep 18, 2020 by Maresie888
	Not responding as a technique (Preview) I still have to deal with my forner roommate because my dog is atayimg at his house. I am within a few weeks of being able to bring ny dog back to the building i live in. The rennovation of the building (which has been all year) is almost over For 20 years I have been friends with someone who deliberately tri...	Maresie888	6	3554	Sep 17, 2020 by Maresie888
	Courage to Change September 16 (Preview) In today's reading from courage to change, the author reflects on how, in the face of seemingly impossible problems, it is easy to believe that our most negative thoughts indicate reality. Worst-case-scenarios are plead in a convincing way, and a positive outcome seems impossible. However, the l...	Skorpi	3	3425	Sep 17, 2020 by Maresie888
	Courage to Change 9/16 (Preview) Posting early for tomorrow....the reading discusses the reality that all humans want to fit in and be a part of. Balance is the key and most of us who arrived at Al-Anon affected by this disease lost our balance along the way. People pleasing becomes destructive when we ignore our own needs and sacri...	Iamhere	5	530	Sep 17, 2020 by Maresie888
	9/15/20 ODAT - Let it Go... (Preview) Today's page touches on a foundational concept of AlAnon: The level of felt Serenity is ours to control or give away, determined in part by how we choose to respond to people and situations around us.If we stop reacting to or acting upon everything that comes our way, instead choosing the factors that...	Enigmatic	5	419	Sep 15, 2020 by mamalioness
	I'm new here... where do I begin? newbie new help guidance steps (Preview) Hi, I'm new here and struggling with not being a co-dependent enabler for my dual diagnosis daughter. I know there are steps, but how do I find them? Where do I begin? I'd like to jump right in and learn as much as I can to try to make this horrific pain and devastation become less intense. I'd really like to...	Friedmom	9	5507	Sep 15, 2020 by Maresie888
	My best shot... (Preview) Our welfare authorities are called Oranga Tamariki, or OT for short. The name means "healthy children". A goal and a vision that most everyone share. My nephew and partner had had their two kids taken off of them- and they are in foster care. I won't tell their story, as such, but share mine- and the...	DavidG	3	1905	Sep 15, 2020 by Maresie888
	hard decision (Preview) So I was told yesterday that my AH wife has been going around and telling all the guys she works with that we are separated and not that we are on a trial separation as we agreed too. I guess I was the only one who was under the impression was a trial to figure out what she wanted. So I sent a text to her family so t...	Geoff	9	1740	Sep 15, 2020 by Maresie888
	ODAT in alanon, 9/7 (Preview) The reading for Monday, 9/7, says that we should not look for pity. We should not expect other members to tell us our resentments are justified, nor should we take aggressive action. We hopefully will learn to change the way we see our family problems, and resist aggression by using dignity and pois...	Lyne	5	1724	Sep 14, 2020 by mamalioness
	Traditions (Preview) Having to divorce my AH becuase I need to not because I want to has started making me think of all the traditions we have created in the past 17 years. With Fall right around the corner, Fall was our favorite season. We hosted a chili gathering, always spent Thanksgiving with just us, football watching,...	Kokopelli	7	522	Sep 14, 2020 by Bettertomorrow
	C2C, 9/14 (Preview) The reading for Monday, 9/14, talks about how the author decided it was best not to hope for anything. Life lessons were too painful, hopes became shattered, and despair set in. The writer says eventually they were completely shut down emotionally, and they refused to care or hope for anything. Bu...	Lyne	2	359	Sep 13, 2020 by Iamhere
	Boundaries (Preview) Boundaries these are the guide lines we agreed too when getting together. There were some simple ones like don't commit adultery. When this happened and I chose to try to work it out we setup other boundaries. Like personal issue between the two of us is only meant for therapy or close family not a membe...	Geoff	8	2477	Sep 13, 2020 by Maresie888
	Steps one and twelve. (Preview) i bike around the valley a fair bit. The bike has about 18 gears. A long way away from the old bone shaker I rode as a kid. About 12 years ago i was biking around the lake. I looked around and realised that the trees were moving around- and even the hills were moving. The hills moved much slower than th...	DavidG	6	1864	Sep 13, 2020 by serenity47
	Hope for Today Sept 13 (Preview) Good morning everyone: The focus of todays reading is self awareness and how it can help us navigate the experiences of our lives. The writer describes having grown up with an alcoholic father who flew into rages. Because of the fear associated with these, the writer often would attack or provoke fi...	yanksfan51	0	339	Sep 13, 2020 by yanksfan51
	9/8/20 – C2C Struggle w/HP? Might be Control... (Preview) Today's page asks for our reflection to identify what really holds us back from turning things over to a higher power (HP) or God. It may not be an HP issue, or nature of the problems we hold on to. It likely is a growth opportunity to Let Go, Let God/HP.There is a cost to putting faith in something greater:...	Enigmatic	7	5939	Sep 13, 2020 by Maresie888
	Courage to Change 9/10 (Preview) Today's reading is all about denial. It suggests that when we come to Al-Anon, we often don't even recognize the disease of alcoholism in our lives, let alone how far it has affected and impacted us. As denial begins to lift, we often are horrified at the lies we told ourselves and others. The readin...	Iamhere	3	410	Sep 12, 2020 by mamalioness
	Courage to Change - 9/11 (Preview) Doing the Fourth Step inventory, the author of today's reading thought they were doing it all wrong. Then they realized, with Higher Power's help, that their life-long problem had been that they always felt inadequate -- no matter what they were doing, it wasn't good enough. Now they have a better...	Freetime	5	765	Sep 12, 2020 by mamalioness
	If they love you. They will run back not walk. That's what you deserve. (Preview) Well after 4 days of this. She spoke with her sponsor ( a woman) and her counselor/therapist from the center (the only one I trust he is a nice guy). They both recommended that we do a trial separation for 2weeks to see if this is what she and I actually want. I have been broken up all day cause I knew that this...	Geoff	10	3455	Sep 12, 2020 by mamalioness
	Courage to Change September 9 (Preview) Hello MIP! In today's reading in C2C, the author shares that they sometimes don't know how to ask for help. And so, instead of asking for help in an Al-Anon meeting, the author sits quietly and listens. From the outside, maybe people think everything is fine because the author might look calm, when in...	Skorpi	7	3594	Sep 12, 2020 by mamalioness
	Responsibiity /the holidays (Preview) This is the tine of year that I.usually simply slip and slide into wallowing in self pity. I get into comparison with s few se kn ected targets. Of courss I can only imagine wgar other people have. I do not really know Thiz year with Covid 19, having to move out of ny apartment, being sick, being separate...	Maresie888	0	1210	Sep 11, 2020 by Maresie888
	what now (Preview) She is going to stay here and apparently we are separated but going to stay under the same roof. I told her she needs to decide what to do by the end of the week. I am not sure if I can handle being close to her as I just want to kiss and hold her. All I get to do is watch her walk away and I don't have a clue if this is th...	Geoff	7	1380	Sep 8, 2020 by Maresie888
	Expectations Are ALWAYS A Disappointment (Preview) It's true,all my expectations with/of AH always lead to disappointment. Why is that so hard to accept? Why is it so hard to stop expecting anything better or different? Every single time I expect something I am setting my own self up. He's not doing that to me,I am doing this to myself. I don't know wh...	SunnyFrogs	11	1558	Sep 6, 2020 by Iamhere
	Hope for Today Sept 6 (Preview) Good morning everyone: Todays reading is about the strength of alanon literature and the support by others in Alanon, especially when getting to in person meetings is not feasible. The writer describes the Lone Member Service; this is something I am not familiar with but it is described as a way for...	yanksfan51	2	1223	Sep 6, 2020 by Iamhere
	Changes (Preview) Well we talked it out this morning over coffee. It turns out I was right she isn't in love with me she was just trying to make it work for convenience and the kids she doesn't share the same feeling I do for her. We are going to try separation see what happens from there.. She cannot invest anytime into our r...	Geoff	5	1169	Sep 6, 2020 by Iamhere
	So frustrated (Preview) Well it my AW birthday today. We just finished opening gifts with the kids had a coffee and she just received a text from her guy friend mother saying call me asap please. She did and it turns out he is in the hospital. He OD on his DOC and now because his mother can't drive him and his girl friend also doesn'...	Geoff	8	1423	Sep 6, 2020 by Iamhere
	Courage to change Saturday, 9/5 (Preview) Today's reading is about the after effects of Letting Go. Once we begin focusing on ourselves and let go of the obsession & worry for others, the author found that there was a whole lot of free time that took some time to adjust to. The author states, "We knew how to live in a state of crisis, but it ofte...	PosiesandPuppies	5	1490	Sep 6, 2020 by Iamhere
	Courage to Change - September 4 (Preview) Calmness of mind -- the writer of today's page faced a dilemma of how to fill the extra time gained by not focusing on other people's crises. Now that the mind has become quieter, how to fill it without grabbing for old fears, how to be mentally busy without creating our own crisis which lets us feel bus...	Freetime	7	388	Sep 6, 2020 by Maresie888
	Courage to Change 9/3 (Preview) Today's reading is all about seizing the day, the moment, etc. Many of us put our dreams and promises on hold waiting for that special day - that one day when .... Some of us were waiting for the disease to be cured, others were waiting on something else - no matter. Al-Anon has helped us to see that toda...	Iamhere	3	360	Sep 5, 2020 by PosiesandPuppies
	Calling their bluff (Preview) So my AH is saying he is going to fight for the house after twice now he said I could have it, back and forth this is going. No kids, dogs with special needs, been in the house for 25 years. I'm worried to fight for the house if he wants it to becuase the judge can say sell it and split the money, were in FL. He do...	Kokopelli	8	486	Sep 4, 2020 by Maresie888
	Jealousy (Preview) One of the traits I have seen with the alcoholic qualifier is the need to make me feel insecure and jealous After the qualifier wooed me and appeared to be a devoted boyfriend he switched lkterally overnught to quite deliberately trying to make me feel insecure and absolutely comoulsively discount...	Maresie888	0	377	Sep 4, 2020 by Maresie888
	Courage to Change September 2 (Preview) Hello MIP! In today's reading the author reflects on step 1: We are powerless over alcohol and our lives have become unmanageable. Over the years, the author did a lot of thinking about step 1, and recently, began to do a lot of feeling about the step as well. The primary emotion the author shared was g...	Skorpi	5	400	Sep 4, 2020 by Maresie888
	Dealing to the disease. (Preview) Disease, illness, sickness, malaise. It is cunning and baffling. I have heard the word "dysfunctional" bandied about. I think that that is far too soft a word. Damaging, dangerous, even life threatening, describes it better. I have been involved with my nephew G. His two kids have been taken int...	DavidG	3	398	Sep 3, 2020 by PosiesandPuppies
	AH angry that children are getting counseling (Preview) I just told AH that I'm getting the kids signed up for counseling. He is Furious. I am standing my ground. I know enough about this disease now to know that my kids are going to need to have tools in place. They're too young for Al-A-Teen. (At least the littler one is). I want them to have someone they can t...	Fedora	7	475	Sep 3, 2020 by PosiesandPuppies
	I hesitate to share .. (Preview) I'm going to any ways. Basically long story short this has been a year of revelation of how much I get to control myself and not others. My latest run in with my X involved my youngest and an iPad for singing lessons. S/he (cause I'm pretty sure his wife was involved) was very entertaining. They overp...	SerenityRUS	4	604	Sep 2, 2020 by PosiesandPuppies
	Step One (Preview) From the beginning, I was told that "the instructions" for recovery were in the Twelve steps. Sometimes (and especially when nothing feels like its working anymore) I like to re-read the instructions. Many of us are facing challenges this year, and I thought a discussion on the instructions coul...	2HP	10	545	Sep 2, 2020 by 2HP
	Good Morning to you all (Preview) I just wanted to say good morning to you all. My wife an I have our couples session today and the previous ones usually end up with us worse off than when we start. We usually right after just talk about it without our therapist and always work it out on our own. I feel like today will be different it will only...	Geoff	4	337	Sep 1, 2020 by DavidG
	Backlash over self care (Preview) Whenever my AH takes vacation days I know we are in for daily drinking because every day off is a drinking day. And I also expect that at some point during vacation he will lash out at me. This time, we are vacationing at home because of Covid, though we are able to go do things outdoors. I have been tellin...	Seahorse7	11	503	Sep 1, 2020 by SerenityRUS
	9/1/20 ODAT - Refocus -> Freedom (Preview) Today's page addresses the loneliness that may come from feeling that no one truly understands what we are going through. We are reminded, however, that we can free ourselves from this at any time by refocusing our mind on blessings, rather than the real or perceived deficits in our life.Nothing has...	Enigmatic	3	483	Sep 1, 2020 by PosiesandPuppies
	Self (Preview) This weekend stared off on a sour note for my spouse and I. I did realize it was all due to me and my attitude. I was letting the what if's control my days and by the end of the week I was in a terrible mood even staurday morning when we have coffee together on the porch and she reads from her daily book it was not e...	Geoff	3	361	Aug 31, 2020 by DavidG
	ODAT in alanon, 8/31 (Preview) The reading for Monday, 8/31, reflects upon people saying its a nice day when the weather is fine. What we learn in alanon is that the kind of day it is, does not depend upon the weather. Instead, the kind of day we are having is attributed to our attitudes and reactions to what s going on around us. The...	Lyne	2	451	Aug 31, 2020 by Iamhere
	Do I really want to do this? (Preview) I am reading all of these posts and thinking do I really want to do this? I feel very naive and, quite frankly, stupid. I started seeing someone last fall. I work with him and knew that he went through a 30 day rehab and 60 day IOP last year, before we started seeing each other. I worked with his family to h...	Matoma	13	621	Aug 30, 2020 by Iamhere
	Hope for Today Aug 30 (Preview) Good morning everyone: I wouldnt typically start with the Thought for the Day at the end of todays page, but it is such a powerful statement Im thinking about it like bookends for each day, a morning and evening reflection. It reads: In Al-Anon Ive learned to savor the tiny, specific, beautiful momen...	yanksfan51	2	367	Aug 30, 2020 by Iamhere
	Saturday's Daily 8/29/20 (Preview) Sorry for the late start, MIP Family! Today's reading is from Courage to Change. It speaks about Step 8. "Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all." The author describes Step 8 as "the means to release myself from unrelenting guilt." They go onto say that by m...	PosiesandPuppies	3	340	Aug 30, 2020 by Iamhere
	3 A's and 4 P's... a step 11... (Preview) I picked up the three A's here. I was always cautious about not using conference approved material. Maybe hypervigilant, even. So- the three A's appear in a reading for Courage To Change. Through our three daily readers there are over 1000 entries. So there is a fair bit of scope here. I believe that...	DavidG	2	1022	Aug 30, 2020 by DavidG
	2nd DUI (Preview) This morning the police called me out of my class to alert me that my AH had been taken to the local jail because of DUI. This is number 2. The city police called the campus police to try to find me. The campus police officer was so kind. The city police officer were so kind. I appreciated that. They had to go...	Fedora	9	614	Aug 30, 2020 by Maresie888
	Feelings (Preview) I haven't posted in awhile and I have been so busy with work lately. It's a busy time right now. I haven't kept up with my readings or self care the last 2 weeks. My feelings are all over the place. My bf is an active alcoholic and it's putting a strain on me. I try not to argue with him. I will excuse myself from...	dragonfly04	3	402	Aug 29, 2020 by DavidG
	Charity begins at home... (Preview) Or close to home, anyway. I visited my nephew and his partner yesterday. His partner is going away to rehab. on Monday morning- for 12 or 16 weeks. Their kids have been taken off of them- and they want their kids back. I think they have along long way to go. To use a cricketing term- I am a wee way out o...	DavidG	0	307	Aug 29, 2020 by DavidG
	Courage to Change, 8/28 - Sponsorship (Preview) Today's author learned about trust and worthiness from her first Al-Anon sponsor. She learned she could trust her sponsor to be gentle, and also to say what needed to be said. The sponsor helped her overcome her self-doubt. When our author was in despair of ever feeling better, the sponsor pointed...	Freetime	3	415	Aug 29, 2020 by DavidG
	recovery and infidelity (Preview) 2020 has been the worst year for many, but it has been especially terrible for me. I got to start the year off with planning an intervention for my wife. It all started back in fall of 2019 when her father passed away. I had been busy with doing the lions share of taking the kids to sports volunteering for Ho...	Geoff	14	530	Aug 28, 2020 by Maresie888
	Hope for Today Aug 23 (Preview) Good morning everyone: Todays reading is about the important relationship of sponsor/sponsee in the program. It is written from the point of view of the sponsor, and how seeing the growth in recovery of a sponsee is such a big part of the program. I have not had the experience of being a sponsor, but my...	yanksfan51	13	465	Aug 28, 2020 by Geoff
	Courage to Change 8/27 (Preview) Today's reading discusses the first 3 steps in our program. The writer was disappointed when the first meeting attended did not give out a 'do/don't list' on how to change the alcoholic. Instead, the 12 Steps were provided. Desperate for change, she opted to give the steps a try. By the second meet...	Iamhere	3	318	Aug 28, 2020 by Enigmatic
	Shades of 2008 (Preview) In 2008 I was in this program holding on by bare knuckles. I.left the qualifier, was deeply in debt, barely enoloyed and marginally housed. Nevertheless, largeky because of the chaos he created, I left When I.leff the qualifier back then with ni job.and no money the economy took a real downturn. I....	Maresie888	4	345	Aug 27, 2020 by Maresie888
	Mixed signals (Preview) While going through the beginnings of divorcing my AH, we have routines from 17 years together, making his lunch, doing his laundry, calling eachother pet names. How do you cope with this? How do you shut this down and tell him he needs to work on getting better. I want to still be his best friend and h...	Kokopelli	3	365	Aug 27, 2020 by Maresie888
	Second thoughts (Preview) I have my first appointment with the lawyers assistant, a financials appointment, next Thursday. My AH has contacted journey pure and said they cant see him till late next week. He even did a couple things around the house, was shocked. I express how happy I am that he reached out and has an appointment...	Kokopelli	4	383	Aug 27, 2020 by Maresie888
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