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Yesterday my husband went to the med doctor he hadn't done and herion yesterday, so i was hoping he didn't suffer from the withdraw. Well so he didn't have bad withdraw he brought me to buy more herion, not very happy camper, and i didn't think that was right and alot of you are going to disagree with what i did, however he was on the way the doctor to get help. It wrong and i was nervous to death over this whole thing however i have been told from other people other thenhim that the withdraws can make you very sick. So anyway i was not a happy camper. Well we went to the doctors office, since he wanted the help, the doctor saw him and gave him pills that is supposed to help the withdraw. So far it seems to be doing the job, he has to do it three times a day. Well for all of you that are wondering why i did it, you know i don't want him dying from the withdraw, he didn't do anything while with me, and if i got pulled over i would of been screwed. So i don't suggested you every do this. I took a big chance. Well he was going to get help i wouldn 't just go with him if he wasn't going to get help. That would be crazy. But i am being honest with how i am doing. If he told me that he was going to get drugs and not get help i would of called the police or something i would of never gone. However i have talked to my mom and she said he was trying to cut done, as of now the pills seem to be working. What I did tell him is that he needs to be honest with me from now on and let me know what is going on, none of this secret stuff going on. Right now herion is the worst drug to withdraw from. Pls don't take it that i am encouarging you to do this pls don't even think abut that. He is now going to see my med doctor who is an awsome person. We though should feel safe to be able to write what we feel and show that it ok to tell anything. Without a fear of being judged YOu might not agree with what i did. YOu have to rember that he was going to the doctor getting help.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
Just want to let you know you've been in my thoughts and prayers. I'm glad you are posting so honestly, it's impossible for me to judge you -- I don't know what I'd have done. You did what you felt was right for that moment. You don't need to justify that here. We love you. Please do what is best for you, take care of yourself and keep posting. So often I find clarity just putting my thoughts down into word.
No one is here to judge you. You did what you had to do. The choice was yours. I can remember buying alcohol for hubby when he was withdrawing. I was so new to this then. The doctors even told me that if I hadn't done that he would have died. I felt so incredibly guilty about it. But I learned to let it go. I did what I thought was best for us at the time. You did the same. We are not in your shoes. Saying a prayer for you and hubby. Love you.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Sending prayers your way for you and hubby. Sorry you are going through this right now. I'm glad you are here and can share with us. Take care of you....wish i were there to give you a hug in person.
Just wanted to say I think u are doing great! Try to be gentle on yourself. So glad you are here and sharing. I read your posts and think wow, NY has it going on! I am so proud of you. Sending prayers your way as u work through this, and I am also drawing alot of strength from your continued growth! Thanks NY!
I want to start this off with a very big hug to you, ((((((((((((((((NY)))))))))))))))))). Please be kind and gentle to yourself. What you did, I am almost postive that........ alot of us have either done, and probably haven't admitted it, or we think about doing the same thing. You are honest. I am glad that you posted, you are not judged, I see by others, and especially not by me. We are only human, and sometimes it is about survival. I am not where you are, with my " A ", I am not caring, atleast not today and wasn't yesterday. I am working ever so hard on me, actually being a little selfish lately, but I am worth that, I think. I too, have gave my " A " pain pills when he has none, and deosn't have any money to buy crack. Like I said, it is survival. We all do things, and none of us should be ashamed, and none of us should judge, we have no right to judge what others do. Who has time to judge and live with that anyway, right?? I am glad that your husband has gotten medication, to help with the withdrawels. Heroin withdrawels can kill a person. There have been times in the past, that my " A " has gone out to smoke more crack, because he had done so much and couldn't come down without doing more, and I have opened the door for him and not begged him not to. Pretty much the same thing you had done. I will say extra prayers for you and your family. Thank you for posting, honestly will set your mind free. We are all in this together, here to help each other, here to SUPPORT each other. This is an amazing group of people. Keep posting about the medication and how and if it is helping. And relax, do something for you!!!
