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On Wednesday my husband told me he was doing herion and he has been doing it for a while. A I was in shock because I couldn't believe I didn't know he was using. Usally when he using he is very nasty, and he wasn''t at all, he was great to be around. We have been getting along very well it been the best. The only thing was the money part of it, we didn't have much money this year for xmas because i don't make that much and he now found out was using during that time. Well anyway the first thing I did instead of reaching for a knife (i am a cutter) I reach for my computer, and then i made some calls, one to my sponsor who i love to death, and to her i just talked on and on what was going on in my mind on here im (instant messenger) , and the next call was to someone in the program, and then later on my mom. I was online for most of the night before i went to sleep. I did take a low dose of tranquilrs then i took my regular does before i went to bed. I take it everynight form the doctor. While on line my sponsor came on and we talked and it helped so much. If you don't have a sonsor I suggested you get one. Becuase times like this is when you need them. To be able to pick up the phone or go online and they are there. I also greatful for the other friend that i have called and is watching over me.I have built the support system for this reason to be able to contact them in a time of need.Thursday: I went online and I talked any with my sponsor who again am greatful. I was riding the bus for my job (hanicap people) as well. I had talked to that one friend who helped and of course my mom. I had paged the doctor to let him know what going on. Then I went back on the bus worried that this issue with him was not resloved. He had been calling all day to get help and they didn't pick up the phone that made me mad. So i went to drop off each client that i had on the phone and got to this one house and the werid thing happen. Across the street was deers some ran and there was two that just stood there, I was amazed that they were still standing there was two of them that didn't seem scared. Got back on the bus and I got a feeling that everything was going to be ok, so I knew my higher power set those two dear that i will be ok. Page the doctor a couple of times now fast forward later on the my husband was telling me that he was going to try a treatment that they don't keep you over night. So i was happy about that. HOwever that wasn't what the higher power was telling me, around 10:45 pm my doctor calls me, i was shocked that called me that late. Well he told me that he can give my husband the medice he needs to help him, so now we are coming up right from work and he is going to give it too us. That what my higher power was telling me, he took care of me by having the doctor call me and he is going to help us at. That the sign.
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Hey everyone watch me grow. I go thru good & bad times. each day i am getting stronger.
I am so sorry for what you are having to go through! My husband has been sober for 5 months and I would be so shaken if he relapsed--I know it is likely that he will, and I try not to focus on that, but I truly would be so upset. I am so proud of you for reaching out (it takes a lot of courage to admit to old behaviors-cutting) You did the right thing by calling people and getting online! You can be proud of you too! Look at how you've grown, by just doing that!
You are in my prayers. Keep taking it one day at a time!
I am thinking of you and you should be proud of yourself that took a lot of courage. I am glad that you have such a supportive Dr in the background who was able to help you so quickly. You have come such a long way. Keep posting and let us know how you and your husband are doing. Luv Leo xxx
What a long long long way you have come in order to be able to bear with the foibles of getting help. I admire you greatly. I hope to be able to ask for more help over time and you are an inspiration for me.
Way to go girl!!!! It never ceases to amaze me that the very lowest and hardest times in our own lives tend to be the very thing that serves as an inspiration to others!! While I have a bad habit of NOT posting when things are so hard for me, I can now see that thats when I need to post the most!!!
(((((((((nyct))))) You are doing great even if you dont think you are. I have seen great progress in you since I met you. Keep up the good work, and keep the focus on YOU. I will have to echo the previous posts before me as well. Take care of yourself first and foremost!
