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I'm having a hard time. Yesterday was my sixteenth birthday and...I don't know where I am. I don't even know WHO I am anymore. This was my first birthday without my father around, and while that's what I've always wanted, it still really hurt. The kids all gathered around with one of my friends and sang Happy Birthday. While I was so happy to have them, and my friend there with me, it didn't change the fact that I'm a 16 year old that's getting divorced, is pregnant, has a bunch of kids, doesn't have a father, and that has been cut off from her family. The fact that I'm stuck here thinking about it constantly (the doctor put me on bedrest for the remainder of the pregnancy, he wants to put off labor as long as possible, because of cici's early birth, and the fact that it's twins) hasn't helped anything. I've had too much time to myself. Anyways, that's the most recent update, I'm trying to work everything out. I hope everything else is going well with everyone.
((Mir)) If I was going through what you are, I'd be a little bogged down too! Listen, when I was 16, I had just taken a geographic with my parents to save my dad's alcholism; was in a new school with 1200 students, most of whom knew me as "the southern b**ch" I was living in a city 5x (!!!!!) the size of the town I had moved from, and my mother wasn't speaking to me because I was spending all my time bogged down in hwk (who knew high school was so hard!?) and she was convinced "if I really wanted to..." I could find time to "fix the house really nice..." so when Daddy comes home, "he'll WANT to be with us."
Do something nice for yourself. It's your birthday! Do an un-birthday celebration. And like the Mad Hatter tells Alice "You have ONE birthday every year; but 364 UN birthdays! Give a cheer!"
I am sorry for what you are going through. I don't have any words to give to you. I am glad you are here. If this board can be the one thing to break up the loneliness and get your mind geared in another direction, then maybe that will be what gives you a little peace.
I hope the weight of some of your problems have been lifted, just by talking about it. I absolutely feel for you as I've been there and done that. I came out okay I guess . Anyway, hang in there. It sounds like you are pretty strong and I applaud you for taking it one day at a time!
I was living in a city 5x (!!!!!) the size of the town I had moved from, and my mother wasn't speaking to me because I was spending all my time bogged down in hwk (who knew high school was so hard!?) and she was convinced "if I really wanted to..." I could find time to "fix the house really nice..." so when Daddy comes home, "he'll WANT to be with us." 
. Anyway, hang in there. It sounds like you are pretty strong and I applaud you for taking it one day at a time!