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Today I am a newcomer - humility...


If I had to get a 24 hour coin for every time I relapsed, what a collection I would have. What a great reminder to me that sobriety is one day at a time, for me and my alcoholic husband. As I slip in my own recovery, why am I so obsessed with whether or not he is slipping in his? Why am I focusing on him and not on myself.

My thoughts are crazy, obsessive. This is so hard. I fear his relapse and in the meantime, I am allowing my own. Today I at least have awareness of this. I did not always have that. I thought my thoughts, behaviors etc. were justified. Afterall, he has lied in the past, never been honest about his use, never followed through when he says he will, in regards to his recovery. What has changed? ME! And I am certainly a work in progress.

Today I say with humility and gratitude that I am a member of Al-Anon. Today I am a newcomer.

Please join me on my journey,

Lynn

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 If you were to look up the definition of "humility" it would begin with the words "not proud, not needing to boast or call attention to oneself or their accomplishments." I think what you're really describing is how humbled you feel when you notice the behaviors in yourself that irritate you in others. Indeed, be humbled--be humbled because the practice of humility is the reality of being a human being. It is the actualization that I am not god and that I am no more or less than any of God's creations walking this earth.


 Because we crave a way, as humans, to differentiate ourselves, I feel to some extent it is normal that we want to find ways to "superiorize" ourselves. We want to know who is "the best;" who has "the most;" who has "achieved." We want recognition for ourselves, our work, and what we've achieved as we've grown. But the risk here is that our desire for acknowledgement quickly borders itself on approval seeking; our feeling of superiority quickly become gradiosity; our desire to serve the greater good of humanity becomes a cause of atttention getting, rather than attention giving.


 Rather than punishing yourself for realizing the humanity of yourself, I would suggest that you realize the process taking place. As you begin to hold yourself accountable for your progress and growth, hopefully you won't feel a need to take other people's inventory; you will find in yourself that you're too occupied with your own to  mind other people's business. A worthwile challenge might be to really look at why you feel a need to become frustrated with the pace of your growth, rather than being relieved by it--is there a need being fufilled by self punishing behaviors?



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((((confused))))


You expressed exactly what I said today and how I feel. What did I do that for, why did I say that, why am I so focused on him? Yea for relapse because it gives us a chance for progress. Yea for recovery. I am there, let the journey begin.


In support,


Nancy



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Standing in line to get my coin -- with humility and gratitude  --- again.


(hope you have a big bag of those, LOL)



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dear confused,


thank you for being honest and sharing your experience, strength and HOPE.


love and blessings,


jewely



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(((((confused)))))

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i agree with doxie
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((confused)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
love and support to you - i hope your journey brings to you all the things you NEED to find happiness and serenity.

with love
cj

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