The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I wanted to let any newcomers know that this program really does work.
I came to this board this year in April. So shattered, so heartbroken, so obsessed. All I could think about was what my alcoholic husband was doing and when he would stop drinking. If he was ever going to stop??? If he didn't stop, what would I do. I truly believed I could not exist without him.
It has been a year of horrific relapsing for him, I have seen him go through so much pain. He has lied, and put us in a lot of financial strife. He has gotten a third DUI. It feels like everything bad has happened that can happen that is part of someone being truly defeated by alcohol.
My biggest challenge in getting through this year is to continue to let things go to my HP, to talk through things with you all, try to go to f2f meetings, pray always, daily. Remember to take care of myself, stand up straight, don't isolate too much. I just can't tell you how much better I feel. If it weren't for this board and this program, I would be dead. I truly felt like I was just going to die of a broken heart....
You all took me in, told me I was WORTH something. I never thought about myself before, or considered that I was worth taking the time to care and love myself. It has come in bits and pieces, this learning, but it is so much better, this life.
THANK you from the bottom of my heart for being here, sharing your stories, and loving all of us. This life is too short to be wasted on depression and negative energy. This program has slowly taught me, and is still teaching me, that love is the most important thing we have. Love for ourselves and then compassion and love for others. That will restore us to sanity, helping others. So thanks to all of you whose words helped me to grow and feel my pain. Someone told me this year, "we don't have to do this pretty". Boy, I didn't do this pretty, but I feel like a new person. I actually like myself and I am proud of my growth. I thank HP for placing these situations in my life this year so I could be stronger and more healthy.
WOW! What a great post. It is so good to read the smile on your face.
Yes this program does work and like a member of a f2f meeting said last night, "It would be so great if these lessons could be taught in our high schools to the teenagers". Yes we have Alateen but not nearly enough active groups.
I know personally when I look back at my life the way it has always been and the way it is now I wish so badly that I had known many years ago what I know today.
Mo
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Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks all over it.
YES, this programme really does work. You have mentioned a lot of things In your post, that have just hit home to me. It shows us that one post, can have so many different meanings to each and every one of us.
I'm glad you are doing so well with your programme. I am also at the 1st year mark, and I have done brilliantly In my programme. I have sliped a bit over christmas, but I am trying to find the Inspiration from this board to pull my self off my "butt" and get on with It. Some-one said to me tonight, Growing up Is hard Lynn, WOW I am 35 (lol). When do I start to grow up.
I wish you all the best with your programme, and remember "work It, your worth It".
