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Electrical power has been out for a week... my email consisted of chiseling stone tablets and shipping them through Bedrock Postal Service.
Funny how my serenity was at its greatest when I needed to make sure there was wood chopped, candles on hand, food to keep, cooking in the fireplace, making bathwater from the fireplace... the great Pacific Northwest...
Anyhow, my AW keeps lying to friends and family. It is sickening; she has court tomorrow for assault charges. I am not quite at peace, but getting closer. F2F 5 days a week -- sanity is reentering my life.
Hope most of you are hanging tough and keeping your stepwork up. Alanon only works for you if you work it. Almost like homework-except getting an "A" means you are getting healthy!!!
Love
cj
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time to stop going to the hardware store to buy bread.
Keeping an attitude of gratitude can be tough when its cold and there's no power. It's wonderful that you have found serenity in doing those things that many of us would be fussing over as a big inconveniences. You make me grateful for this unseasonably warm weather we are having -- and for power--- and that I don't have to chop wood LOL.
I can relate to getting busy though, there is nothing like getting to work on something to rid your mind of the obsessive thoughts of the A. And you accomplish something in the process! That's a win/win situation there.
I wish you well, and hope that Mother Nature will send you some warmer weather soon.
Oh I love the surviving thing cj. I miss/need my wood heat. Use candles all the time.
When i was a young hippie I visited my friend Loulou at this cabin they lived in on the Sixes river. NO heat, no power. A lot of work. Had a wood cookstove.
We all wore long underwear and dresses on top. Well not the guys. lol Was much simpler, much more physical.
I know when I feel sad about A, and I go out to feed and work on the barn or something, it feels so good to be using the hammer or saw or whatever. just is not the same putting on some shorts and whatever going to a gym and doing some dumb machine.
I know I feel better if my life is my exercise. I LOVE it when I get to jump on my horse and herd something. JUMP yea right more like move a five gallon bucket of paint over so I can reach the dang stirrup. lol
Serenity is so soothing. I was thinking today, how i want a place that opens to an area of comfort, serenity and peace. Where i leave the world at the door stop.
Just go in and breath in and let go of the pain and lonliness and stresses.
I imagine flowers there and insense. wind chimes around it, some kind of homemade chair and or bed.
A serenity room, hmmmm. My house could be that, however it is hard to get serenity when you have a dog rolling in the pile of dirt ya just swept up, a potbellied pig who just rooted up your feather blanket, another dog who ran in with muddy feet and jumped on your clean cloths,a parrot who ate your pretty lights...and for petes sake who has my other slipper????
dang what was the subject??
eh they all lie. It is no reflection on you. I hope they don't let her off easy.I wish my A would have gotten five years instead of 3 m.. He was just getting sober and thinking and they let him go....
