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I don't have much time to write this morning. A few days ago there was a fire at my Mom's house, everyone, humans, dogs, cats, bird is OK. We've set up a temp place for them to live (crossing fingers it works out) and today start clean up on the house. Insurance is a little strange the house is covered, soem contents are covered others not. My faith is being tested here, between my A and his actions this years and consequences, my brother's loss and now the fire at the house I am supposed to be moving to I'm not only struggling with my faith but also jus feeling like I am a big dark cloud of doom .... i can laugh at my thoughts a little it's getting really hard. In all of this I see in my family the great traits and people, I'm grateful for that. I hope everyone else is doing as well as possible, take care fo yourselves.
So sorry about your family's loss. I know a fire can be devestating. Sometimes it is also freeing as well too. I had a friend who was a serious collector of everything and her house was always dirty and trashy. Her BF was a crackhead. The place caught fire one day when she wasn't home and burned to the ground. She lost EVERYTHING but the clothes on her back. She ended up leaving that guy, starting over never collecting anything again, met a new guy, got married, had her first and only baby at 39. Her whole life changed for the better as a result of that fire. You really never know what's in store.
I am so sorry for the fire! Sometimes it just seems like we keep getting hit by any and every direction doesn't it? Just try to keep coming back here. Life can be so overwhelming at times!!! I know cleaning up the house won't be any fun either--lots of yucky work!! Get yourself some bubbles for after those long hours working through all of that stuff!
Oh honey, I am so sorry you are going through this. I am glad that everyone is safe and all the pets are too.
I too sometimes wonder why HP is testing us so. One would think that we've been tested enough with just the addiction itself. Then it keeps coming. My faith has been tested too alot this year. All I can do is just say to myself that this year is coming to an end and I hope and pray next year will be much more peaceful for all my family here and my MIP family.
Love and blessings to you and your family.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I too have had a lot of things happen around me in the last two weeks, so much so that I could write a country song, including that muh old dawg died. All things that happen to people we love affect us, but what I've come realize is that it isn't happening to ME. My first reaction was AAAAHHHHH, make it stop!!!!! My next reaction is "it's all just stuff". I'm just feeling bad about it as any human would. My son chopped his hand with an axe and had to have surgery and now therapy. His used/newcar was in a wreck Now the transmission has gone out ($2,000) My Dad needs surgery and my Mom won't come here to stay (she's an invalid) My fav Aunt is in hospital and in critical condition My sweet old dog passed away
BUT..was it my car that wrecked and needs a transmission? Was it me that chopped my hand? Is it me in the hospital? No to all the above. I'm fine and feel badly for those circumstances, but they aren't mine. I just know of them. They are stress factors for sure but the people that are really being tested are those that these things are happening to. I choose not to take it on as mine. I'm just a bystander. I've come to realize that IF I'm being tested it can only be a test of compassion for others that really are dealing with these things.
Christy
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If we think that miracles are normal, we will expect them. And expecting a miracle is the surest way to get one.
I'm sorry for that load you are carrying. I think you are stronger than you know. Where does all this junk come from anyway, the trials and sorrows.....we don't know, but anything good will look REALLY good from now on...
What a big load to carry. Sometimes for me it is one day at a time, one week at a time, one month at a time. I break it down. I no longer think what more can happen. I've been through my trials. I know I have tremendous strength and resilience. Anyone who is willing to work this program has.
