I have decided to quit my part time job. I work as a bartender two nights a week. Use to work there full time for about five years. Been back about a year now. But I hate it. Have learned so much about ism that it turns my stomach to look at these people in the bar. Same ole people, same ole problems, same ole drunks. It's pitiful. I can not afford it as it pays about 250.00 to 300.00 for two days but I've decided to go with out some things in my life. Its gonna be hard but I am determimed.
Then I had to break my no contact after 3 months because cops came and delivered papers to me over a business issue with exabf that had both our names on it. Then I took the papers to his office after talking to him and told him I would drop them off, his daughter was there and I got into a conversation with her, about how are things with you and your brothers, never asked anything about Dad. Anyway to make a long story short I wound up asking her to drop by and see me sometime (I still love his children, but they don't know the whole story). She said she would love too. Then I thought and then called her back and said you might want to ask Dad how he feels because he didn't want me to have anything to do with younger brother who is 7. She said well I don't know anything about that, but I would love to come over.  She has had a lot of problems with drugs and alchol but has been out of rehab for about 2 months and back living with Dad. Don't know what will happen but I guess my big need to help came over me and she was telling me that she has no friends and no one to hang out with but dad and brothers. We only live six streets apart. She apologized for all the things she had ever said or done to me. I guess that I probally  should not encourage her to visit me but I just felt so sad for her because I know what she is going Thur living with her Dad!! She is 24 years old.
Ans I care about her.
Sisdragonfly