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Life has brought me much pain and many pleasures...these things I am grateful for...however, hub is trying to find some sympathy and compassion....the truth of the matter is I have nothing left to give him......
Me and the kids have suffered so very much.....we are just starting to recover....I can see the life becomming alive in my home again....my home does not have any misery in it anymore....it has peace and joy and most of all I beleive we have serenity....
Zach is playing the guitar again for the first time in a long time, Samantha is having her friends over again...and my home is becoming alive with laughter.....this is now my focus....this is now my joy.....and what a great joy it is....
I can no longer worry about Chuck and Chuck getting sober, I can no longer fight the disease....I have been fighting so very long...and Chuck has just kept getting hi. and that is the reality of it....
I do not wish him anything but peace, I hope for his own sake he finds it....he is no doubt going to have to go to jail...or something...he owes alot of money...wrote a ton of bad checks...on everyone else's accounts....just gave his very soul to addiction....the devil....as I call it......
Anyway, that is for him to deal with, I can no longer help him....I am too busy helping myself and my kids...wow that feels great.....it is amazing how we feel when we decide that we are in control not the addiction
It truly is amazing when we decide the addiction won't control us anymore...rather freeing. I will continue to pray for you, your and kids and Chuck. If I was there with you, I'd give you a big hug and say "Way to Go!"
God is seeing you through a very tough time. May He Bless you abundantly!!!
Who would have thought that anyone would ever be able to write about finding ever-increasing joy in the face of the events happening in your life? To me, the power of this program is immense and beautiful, because it is the power of the spirituality that it aligns itself with. You are a beautiful, wonderful example of looking within yourself for answers, when the effects around you seem to offer little hope. Despite such sorrow, such painful experiences, such agony over a million attempts to DO something to make your situation improve with an alcoholic, you let go. And in letting go, your home becomes happier; your children respond to the heartfelt joy that you are and have allowed yourself to feel again. One of the hardest things of all to DO, is let go. We've been so conditioned to do something, "try, try again." That's for learning how to walk, not for healing another's afflictions, especially those afflictions that another hasn't chosen to rise above themselves.
I love the sweet person you are, and send you many wishes for happy holidays for your little family
I can still dig in and find tremendous resentment agains the A. I try not to act on it anymore. I am impressed with how far you have come in such a short time. I am glad your family is recovering.
You know Andrea reading your post reminds me why we say sister's in recovery. There are so many parallels between our two lives right now and I have to say you motivate me more - to want even better for myself. The moment I came into this program I have felt like I was at home. You are such a sweet shining light - thank YOU for shining on my day today
What an uplifting post!!! Yeah for letting go!!! What a truly hard thing to do, and we have to surrender every single day. Your home sounds like it is calm now, and full of joy - laughter is the best!!! I am happy for you and your family for this calm to be present, you deserve it.
I pray that your husband finds recovery soon. It is so so hard to see the one you love hurting so much. Don't give up praying for him...
WAY TO GO! FILL THAT HOME WITH JOY, HAPPINESS AND LOVE! 
