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My mother has been an alcholic... forever.. yet it only started 3 years ago when she began again now she is so far down she will clean up for 2 weeks.. then binge... drinking 20 in a night.. passing out.. but not until she become so mean... last night when i was out there she threatened to kill herself... and she gets so angery... so hurtful... i moved out 3 monthes ago... i couldnt be around it anymore but my little sister... 3 years old... lives with her alone... she isn't violent towards her... but i worry about the impact it will have on skye as she grows up.. and i feel so guilty all the time... i cry and i pray and nothing ever happens... and i dont know what to do.... how to save her and my mom or even myself.... last night i was so far gone that i went by an AA meeting... it was closed... but the people, so nice, took a concicious and let me stay... sometimes i feel so alone... so scared.
I am so very sorry for the pain you are in right now. Please stay with us and read and post as much as possible. I am so happy that you reached out to go to a meeting last night.
I am not really sure how you can help your little sister. That is a very sad situation. Is there a dad in the picture? Try to learn as much as you can about the addiction of alcoholism and as your sister grows you will be able to help her so much. She can get on the path to understanding and recovery very early on. That is a wonderful gift you can give her.
Please keep going to meetings. This will help you more than you could imagine.
I'm glad you are here. There aren't any quick easy answers. Just know you aren't alone. You'll find support here, a place to vent and tools that will help you keep going on this journey. I'm glad you got such a positive reponse from the AA'ers, is there a face to face Alanon meeting you can attend?
Please keep coming back. Take it one day at a time.
Welcome to MIP! Keep coming back. Find an Alanon f2f meeting. It is a disease and we learn that we are powerless. You are definitely not alone. There is alot of support and understanding here. Get ahold of some of the Alanon literature.
Glad that you have joined our MIP family, but hate to hear that you have been affected by this disease.
Please know that you are not alone. There are many of us here that have dealt with similiar situations. Keep reading the post, try an Al-Anon meeting, on-line meetings & open AA meetings. Send private messages to those who you feel a connection with - reach out - we are here for you - just like others have been here for us. In recovery, we don't have to face our problems alone any more, we have each other & a Higher Power that can help us.
Don't give up before the miracle happens in You - You deserve it.
One day at a time,
Rita
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