Ok....everyone...(oh, by the way hello!!!)<LOL> I've been dying to get on this computer to tell ya's that the "stuff hit the fan" last night (understatement of course)!! hee hee...And you will have to be as proud of me as I am...not trying to b conceited here either, ok? My AH had got to the poin he wasn't getting anywhere with me (physically(s*x)/or aruging so he decided to tell me standing in the kitchen that he "ought to knock the hell out of me"! OH YEA!!! I told him "go ahead, and you will go to jail"!!! And then he says a few more things and starts walking a-round the kitchen counter that divides the livingroom and kitchen and says, " I think I will do it" and I get scared!! So I threatened to call 911, but instead...hee hee...I got on the phone and called his MOTHER!! The one who is in so much "DENIAL" of her baby having a drinking problem! I told her that her son has threatened to knock the hell out of me and if he does he'll go to jail! She says, "he's drunk, just don't argue with him". OH MY GOSH!! He gets on the phone and he tells her, "mom, you know I don't hit women and so does she". I yelled..."Then DON'T threaten  ME"!!! Ok...we get past all that, he goes to bed...he wants me to come talk to him...ok...I will go talk...well that turned into a disaster because I opened up and told him what I was feeling, and all he wants to do is,...well...NOT!!! So I have to get out of bed and go back to the couch and I start reading, "If God Cares", Why Do I Have Problems". I already know why...but I was just trying to distance myself from the situation and calm myself down. <LOL>He tells me I have to be out of here Monday!! NO, I DO NOT!!! I will go when I get an apartment and the $$ to do it with. He offered to go get one for me! Whatever! The credit card company called this morning wanting a payment of $196.00 by Friday. He hasn't payed any bills this month because buying a piece of junk car was more important. Then he has the nerve to tell me that I can't go see my son before he gets deployed back to Iraq again soon!! GRRRRR!!! I told him how I feel about that too!! That's my son, and this will be his 3rd trip over there and I never know if he'll come back home alive or not!! How dare him put a car before my son!! It's not his son!! I told him he would never understand that either, he's not blood related!!! So anywayzzz, before I get caught writing this..I just wanted to tell ya's that my prayers have been answered and I will be out of here before May 2007. I may have to take an apartment that isn't up to my liking but at least I will be at peace and outta here!! WOOHOOO!! Don't get me wrong...I'm not tryin to be hateful...I always ask God to watch over him and help him see what he's doing to himself and others that love him. Because I know it's not in my hands to do that! If he wants to act like he does and have his mom and dad turn against me when I've nothing but live with all this crap... and try to help him...then that's his problem. I have to trust that better things in life are coming!! I've been promised that!! And I'm going to take it!! So...I will keep ya''ll posted on what happens here, even if it means I have to go to the library to write. I won't even have a bed or t.v. or chair, or anything when I leave here, much less a computer! <LOL> One thing I do know for sure tho, is I will still have you all to come back to, because you are the reason I am where I am today!! And I thank you from the bottom of my heart! Honestly! Love Ya's! Bye! Korinne