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I have come much farther in my recovery than I even imagined.....I had a huge reality check yesterday....and I took the right path for me....
Well hub hit and he hit hard.....thought he could walk right back in this house because he had no where else to go....he was strung out, no resources to get what he needed.... so of course who does he call......well...reality check, I have moved forward....I am at a place where what he does is all on him...and what I do hey, it's ok to be about me...
I had some plans yesterday with the girls from work, we were going out to hear some music....hub called.......desperate and strung out.....I picked him up as he had absoultely no place to go....took him to the local emergency room....he tried to play on my emotions, sympathy even had the nerve to blame me....me who has been the crazy woman trying to find the husband that I lost.....well that hit me like a hammer and I was pissed off....I thought you bastard how dare you....I have been here always to save your sorry ass....I am done ...... you can either save yourself or not So, I dropped him and went out with the girls from work....and I had a great time...
I think this is huge progress for me......and today I like myself.....
Being needed by the A is a huge trigger for me to rescue. I have managed not to rescue for a while and feel better about myself. My resentment level is lower. I am so glad for you that you could do what you needed to rather than give yourself away and experience resentment.
Way to go!!! That's exactly what you needed to do. Hang in there and keep trusting God. He will see you through it all......I do know first hand. God Bless....I continue to pray for your family.
YOU GO GIRLFRIEND!!!!! I am so proud of you for taking such good care of yourself. And now you won't have any resentments about missing a wonderful time.
Love Ya,
Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?