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It's been so long since I trusted people's motives for being kind. I somehow got used to being treated special either before a bad incident or after one that I no longer trusted anyone's motives for doing something nice.
Over the last year I have worked hard giving up my efforts of controlling, saving and worrying over my A allowing me to have time to be nice to myself and others again. Knowing how wonderful i feel doing something to brighten someone else's day has made me more open to letting other's get that feeling from doing something for me.
It's so odd to think now that a year ago I would have been suspicious of a neighboring business owner bringing special bones for Sully. I just laughed and said thank you, he needs all of them he can get if I want to have any shoes left by the time he matures.
Later though I took a moment to thank my HP for sending such good people into my life this past year. The thought came to me that i wasn't ready for them before. And it is true, I could have easily seen myself wondering why he brought bones, and what would my A think, and how was i gonna stop this .... was I crazy? Why would I want to stop someone from doing a nice thing?
So I am gonna continue to work on accepting that the world is a good place, and good things happen for no reason at all. And more important I can surround myself with this if I am open and choose to accept it.
What an inspiring post. Thank you for the reminder that people ARE here for good things, support and love, though we may not recognize it. You are right, we need to be open to seeing the kindness. Often times we are so wrapped up in our worries that we don't see the small gifts that are presented.
You are right, if you are caught in that worrying state, you are frantic and treat no one with kindness, and may not even realize it!!! What a revelation to concentrate on OUR behavior and check it every day to see what positivity we bring or can bring.
