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I have been worried a lot lately and a saw a sign on a church as I was driving to a F2F meeting. "Don't fear tomorrow. God is already there." I didn't want to offend anyone so I changed God to HP. Anyway. I am six months pregnant now and looking forward to the birth of our daughter. My ex returned my daughter to me three months ago and I had to keep my son this weekend when he came home for a visit after some of the things he reported to me. I will have to get an attorney for custody (we have never been to court for custody) so I am constantly looking over my shoulder because he knows by law all he has to do is come down here and catch him outside and grab him and there will be nothing I can do. Unfortunately when he returned my daughter it was only with the clothes on her back so I had to rebuy everything. My son also has only the clothes on his bacl and a few toys he has left here so my husband and I will have to rebuy everything for him along with buying for the new baby. Gotta love Good Will!!! I am still working my program and am feeling so much more sane. Not to ficus on my husband, but he is also working his program and that helps with my sanity. I find that if I call my sponsor everyday, go to meetings and work my step work, I don't have to say a ting to him, he automatically does what he should. We both have grown, but have so much further to go. I have to go back and revisit step one on almost a daily basis. Going to NA with him has greatly helped me understand the nature of addiction. Going to support him was how I ended up realizing that by my taking nerve pills everyday to deal with the stress I also had a problem...it just wasn't as obvious as his problems and it was easier to focus on his disease. Now I am focusing on me and it is very difficult.
It's hard to have to take my own inventory and look at my part in everything. My sponsor has me write a gratitude list everyday and that is getting easier. It's easier to improve my contious contact with the God of my understanding when I see how muuch I have to be grateful for. It's hard to look at everything I do (even if my hiusband starts an arguement or does something stupid) and look at my place in it.
That's where I am today and it feels good. My children are all under the same roof for the first time in over a year. Recovery is a blessing, baby is on the way and life is good!!! This program truly works and I thank my HP for it every day.
Thank you for sharing with us. I was hoping things were well with you, and it sounds like things are great! I am so glad to hear your kiddos are with you. No stuff... well we always seem to find more stuff for the kids. They outgrow everything anyway although I know it is a financial burden, but not a disaster. Bet they don't even notice.
We were always more concearned with "what" our kids had than they were.
Thanks again for sharing your growth, it is truly inspiring!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
it seems you are doing well. I'm glad all of your children are together and with you now. I now it is a comfort to you. Just keep taking it a day at a time! And yes you are right--thank HP for GOODWILL!!
So glad you have your children - that is a blessing!! - Goodwill is great - I also love Garage Sales!! - Here in Louisiana, we have them all year - I have found tons of great stuff for my grandkids!!
Great job on your recovery & keep taking care of you -
Oh by the way, congrats on the new baby on the way!!
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
What a great quote! Thanks for your inspiring post, also. It is good to know that there is hope out there, and that you have your kids and your recovery, along with your AH's recovery. It IS hard work, but you are willing to work the program, and only true results come from that, and you are positively moving forward.
Thanks for the hope you are sharing, and like another recovering friend says, "we don't have to do this pretty"...!!!!
I am still working my program and am feeling so much more sane. Not to ficus on my husband, but he is also working his program and that helps with my sanity. I find that if I call my sponsor everyday, go to meetings and work my step work, I don't have to say a ting to him, he automatically does what he should. We both have grown, but have so much further to go. I have to go back and revisit step one on almost a daily basis. Going to NA with him has greatly helped me understand the nature of addiction. Going to support him was how I ended up realizing that by my taking nerve pills everyday to deal with the stress I also had a problem...it just wasn't as obvious as his problems and it was easier to focus on his disease. Now I am focusing on me and it is very difficult.
