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As I sit here thinking about the craziness I have been thru these past days and weeks and months....and if I think about it these years......anyway, I am thankful.....I have two great kids....a beautiful 16 yr old daughter who loves life and is full of sunshine.....a wonderful son who is full of love and kindness...a nice home to live in.....a wonderful border collie of 12 yrs named Mac....a cute kitty who sits on my lap and purrs all the time....a job where I am apprciated.....I have two of the most wonderful parents god ever created....so how lucky am I...
I also have a husband of 20 yrs who is lost in the world of addiction....and I mean he is so lost.....it is a sad thing to watch....my husband is 48 yrs old....I have known him for 30 of those years.......he once was a good man, a loving man and a wonderful father.....I find that hard to beleive at times.......now he is a man who lives on the streets and in his world of addiction......it is sad.....I am praying his dad will just let it be and let him go to jail....that is the only hope I can see him having.....he needs to be away from the drugs for a good yr to even have a glimmer of having some hope to escape the world of addiction.....
Thanks all, I know I have really been in a bad way lately....I appreciate your comments your prayers and your love more than you know......
It is hard to end a life you created for the past 20 yrs.....I struggle every day at some point and time.....but I get thru.....and I am praying in time it will be more than just getting thru....and I will find joy once again.....
I still battle those days where all you can see is how much of a waste it is. I told my A last night that it's such a shame, I know I shouldn't have done that but I did. I think the hardest part of it is knowing what they were, or could be, it's even harder than all the crap we have to deal with.
I'll be praying that HP will send you an angel to wrap his wings around you and just carry you thru this. Keep moving forward, there will be better days.
Yes you have been through alot these past few months. You have done it with grace, courage and dignity. You are an inspiration for all. Your children can't help but be well, because of the example you have set for them.
Love and blessings to you and the children. Give Mac and kitty extra scratches for me. Pipers Kitty raises a paw to them! Love ya girlfriend.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I'm here praying for you! I know you are grieving a loss.....I can relate. We can never have that time back, but we can move forward by God's grace. Trusting God is difficult at times, but the only way to heal and move on. It's a struggle, but the encouraging part is we are never alone. It is good you are thankful for your children, your parents and your job and friends. In the midst of this disease you can still find some really good things. Cling to the good. May God wrap his mighty arms around you, and may He surround you with His peace.
Saying a loving prayer for you and your family at this time. Glad you are posting about your feelings, it is so painful when you love someone that long. There is a deep connection and a lot of memories, I know. It sounds like you appreciate what you have though and your AH was lucky to have your love - just think of it that way.... you are special.
It is so good to hear your kids are full of sunshine, that is healing to be around... may the angels and God be with you all, and your kitty and puppy too!!!
