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It is my birthday today. I am 57. I made decision to have a good birth day. I am realizing that I have a choice to suffer or not. And I have made alot of progress in my recovery program but I am not quite there. So, I decided that I would take the Alanon slogan of fake it until you make it or act as if. I ran my long run this morn. The ducks were in the lake. I am sure that they flew in just for me. My mom called and said happy birthday. I have known her for 57 years and have never really gotten along with her but I can appreciate her struggles. My AHsober just keeps bombing with his plans for "his" future. He did offer to met me and take me out for my birthday (our birthdays are 3 days apart) just like old times. I told him no and to not interpret this as a big no but more as a boundary for myself to rest up and catch up in my office. Same goes for him. We are both anxiously awaiting the arrival of our son, the soldier, from Iraq. I think that we are both nervous and relieved at the same time. Of course our son doesn't want us to drive all that way to met him. He wants to celebrate his homecoming with his friends. I am fakin' it that it doesn't matter to this mother; that I am just glad that he will be home safe and sound.
I am so excited. I found out that my state's Alanon/AA convention is the same weekend that I will be in town. My HP is looking out for me. Some good friends called to wish me a happy birthday. There aren't alot of people around my rural town on the weekends but I have big plans for myself. I am going to bake an apple pie, make a fire, and think about how many gifts in life I have. I am grateful for my AHsober and ask my HP for the strength to let him go, I am grateful for the Alanon program because I didn't have much else going for me, I am grateful for my 3 sons who might call on my birthday, I am grateful for my dogs and cats because they are always there, and I am grateful for the challenges that I will know will come.
That post was # 777 and it's on your birthday.....hmmmmmm.
Good for you taking the day for yourself.You deserve it.HP is definitely looking out for you,Nancy.You will become more and more aware of just how much as time goes on.
Here's to a new year, and a new,stronger,more serene life for you.
Enjoy your apple pie and fire. It sounds like a devine way to spend a birthday. A few things that you don't have to act "as if" about are: We love you We care about you We're glad you're here
Take care Christy
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I have big resentments about what others don't do for me on my birthday. I need to take a leaf out of your book. Thank you for sharing such good recovery. We can be too dependent on others. I am so impressed by your detachment. It is impressive. thank you for letting me see it in action.
I have big resentments about what others don't do for me on my birthday.
You know I did in the past too. I realized a few years ago that I need to make my own special days happy. Took a while but I finally learned.
Hope you had a nice day Nancy. Happy Birthday.
Im turning 49 in two weeks. Will work that day and go to Yoga at night. Asked my husband and son to plan on dinner the day before. I'll buy a cake for after Yoga. Taking myself away for the wknd before and the wknd after (conventions).
