The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Well it looks like my plans for the holidays are on hold. I am not working enough to take time off so I will probably be working at the hotel. That will give me some respite. I will go out on the evening of New Years Eve to not have to deal with the fireworks. The bangs and the bombs and whatever are too much for me I have ptsd.
So I was telling a friend last night, another year when I don't get what I need. I have to remember what I need at the moment is to get money and start saving towards plan b. That is what I need. A nice christmas, thanksgiving with all the trimmings comes later. The hotel which I use as a spa also comes later.
Right now I am working on that I need to match what people give to me. At work, at home, at plan. I do not need to over give any more.
Whatever it takes, do take care of yourself! I came to this point of view late--but when I realized as a woman and mom I was setting a bad example for my daughter if I didn't start taking care of myself, I started to do it. I should have been able to see it without having a daughter but anyway I got the message to take care of myself.You are in my thoughts and prayers,
