The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Is it by chance that my work has allowed me to make my recovery almost a full time job for the past 8 months?
Is it by chance that when my AW is trying to tell me on the phone that I am being a bad father and husband that I just so happen to be at my grandparents gravesite reading the small medalians left there that say "A father like you is hard to find, one who's Honest, Strong, Wise and Kind."?
My Grandfather is who I want to be when I finally grow up.
Is it by chance that after I watching my wife drive away with the last load of her things that I go out and sit by the pool to try and calm down and a perfect rainbow is directly ahead of the chair I chose to sit in?
Is it by chance that the random reading I picked in my F2F today to share on would say "... I will try very hard to deal with my day by day difficulties with quite poise, remembering always that I am doing this for my own benefit..." ? (Page 2 ODAT)
Eight months ago I would have said yes... But not today!
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
You always make me smile. Recovery means taking back your life, and making the most of it. You're doing just that. Keep up the great work, I am proud of you.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I remember when I finally let loose at a f2f meeting. I was embarrassed that my problem was not as important as the others who had shared. I shook and cried trying to say what I needed to say. I needed a house...a place to live. I had to move in 3 days and I had nowhere to go with my mom and my daughter in tow. I said "Is it too much to ask HP for a 3 bed 2 bath house that I can rent month 2 month? " A woman I had never seen at our meeting before said...hey I got that. Empty house...3 bedrooms, 2 bath. U can move in tomorrow. Talk to me after the meeting. HP sometimes makes us ask out loud. Sometimes HP is more subtle and sometimes HP drops a brick on your head.
Isn't HP great!!?? I am so glad you are seeing Him. You are doing such a great job yourself keep trucking at it and one day you will grow up to be just like your grandfather!!
I am so glad you are seeing the "signs" also. I see them all of the time, HP is letting you know you are safe. He/she is with you all of the time. You are so aware and open to HP - that is why you are seeing them. You are SAFE.....
Have a great day and thanks for spreading your wisdom and posting your pain, believe it or not it helps us too....
Recovery means taking back your life, and making the most of it. You're doing just that. Keep up the great work, I am proud of you.