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My doctor friend invited me to his party with lotsa his friends up in the "city."
I asked Raini, my daughter to go with me.
It was fancy shmancy. I did not really know this. lol I had to drive to the train station, sit in a train for like almost 3 hours. Ride up was pretty.
Lotsa green,farms, cows and stuff. I sat there and polished my jewelry all the way up. I wear sterling.
Was fun goofing around with the baby and seeing Raini dancing with him and really enjoying him. Those two are like stuck together.
I said, "well when he goes to school..." NO WAY MOM. She is homeschooling. Said he is not leaving until college. Plus she is seriously thinking of moving to Sweden!!!! omg.
I would go if it were just her but my son is here too. sigh
Anyway I put on my nice new overalls, nice ones. new top, my blue jewel stuff. Felt good. I am very farmer tanned. Have my silver with brown and red hair.
It was great seeing my friend and his cute stick wife who is a kick and so cool.
We were there first. Then the whole crowd came. I was intro'd, I had known him the longest and the best.
I had brought him a neat antique 2 foot ruler. It folded all up and had a level thing in it. Was this neat wood and Brass. I loved it but hoped he would love it more.
Also got him some Birkenstock, socks. I do my own thing. Wrapped them in brown paper bag paper and put live flowers and rosemarey on them. They were really pretty. did not sign my name, just drew pigs on them. lol Made a card the same and told him what I saw in him.
He wanted me to marry him clear back in 1979. But NOOOOO I was in love with my A. crimany. I would have made a crummy doctors wife. I hate crowds and do not entertain well. I cannot take in so many emotions and stuff.
But the kicker was guys, I went out of the banquet room we were in a few times, every time others were coming back or whatever that i had been intro'd too. They would turn their heads, or just ignore me. I would look at them and be smiling.
rrrrr Now really I am not outrageous or anything. Free spirited but quiet and smile a lot. I dress simple. My jewelry is just natural stones and silver. simple.
I KNOW it was not me, it was them. I don't care if they are shy, snobs or what. I decided then and there, "they did not deserve my company and I was not going to eat with people like this.
no way. I could see them being butts about my Sprout and I would have to throw my plate at them sooooooo the better idea was to slip out.
I grabbed my Sprout grand baby and left. Rain told my friends wife we were going and thank you. Frankie my friend will understand.
I am used to people who love each other, strangers who hug. uno? or they could say, I know you, have we met haha?? uno?
But to turn your head or ignore? uhuh not me.
So there were my presents for him on the table, amongst the fancey pretty ribbons and sparkles and pretty paper. I liked it....
Had a great time with Raini and Sprout. The train back was hell. Every joint in my body was screaming. I had not had a comfy place to sit alll day. I almost got on the floor of the train! I was the only on in the car anyhow. It was dark. I decided to take a pain pill and xanax... oh better.
Get home, get in my truck and it is dead at 12 pm at the train station...gads. I thought about opening the grass hay bale in the back and sleeping until morn and them my son could come...
But called my son and he said mom don't worry sh** happens.
WHAT!!! I could not believe it was him..haha he got me going. I got home to 8 crazy dogs who wrapped their bodies around my legs and would not let go...Picturing me with them all around me... lol Horse whinnying, pigs cussing and sqealing, chickens crowing, goats bllaaaahhhhing. cats darting around.
geez. I am sure all the neighbors knew i was home too. i never or rarely leave eden. It is like my mother earth here.
A lot of souls here depend on me. AND they don't let me forget it.
I really thought, as I was reading, that you were going to say there were people who wanted to know who you were....If I was at that party, I'd be like hmmmm who is this really interesting person. I'd have to talk to you. I love the way you gifted wrapped, sometimes I use interesting scraps of material or whatever I can get my hands on.
Boy, they really missed out. Your Dr. friend I'm sure will love and remember your gift far more than anything he received. Keep your head up and don't allow this to hurt you, those who are real and loving people know who you are and what you are about, that's all that counts!
I would LOVE to meet you at a party!!! You would be the most interesting person there! People who "ignore" me and snub are not worth my time and I've been to parties like that, too. I love down to earth people who aren't afraid to just get to know you, and I can tell you are that kind of wonderful person. I always hate that small talk, I tend to get into a pretty deep conversation pretty soon with someone!
Anyhow, I am so glad that your doctor friend invited you and you got out to do something, even if it did end up kind of strange. I can tell you are glad to be home and your daughter and her Sprout sound so adorable. I am glad you have your kids, I'm sure they are great.
You ARE the party, my dear, keep on doing what you do! You are an inspiration, and I for one am glad to know you!
Great post!! Sounds like you had a h*** of an adventure. Good for you for being so secure and comfortable with yourself that you chose not to subject yourself or your family to any rude behavior. It was a good reminder to me to remember that who I am is special and if someone doesn't think so then I don't need them anyway.
Have a great day.
Twinmom~
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(((Deb!)))) Yep, their loss. Glad you got to have a good time with Sprout and Raini. I love her name, by the way). Beautiful, natural. A vision of silver and blue.
I cannot believe they ignored you, maybe you reminded them of someone they once were, before they became fancy-schmancy. Maybe they were jealous of the natural beauty you have, the glow that comes from being "real". How sad for them that they missed out!
I'd LOVE to have you at a party. We'd have a blast. Two old ladies in jeans/overalls, dancing and shakin' it. Ha! Your poor doc friend. He was stuck there with all the fuddy-duddys.
The train ride sounds cool. I've never been on one, except at the amuement park.
And, your son is right...S*** happens. And we just go on, anyway.
As I read your post, I could feel how happy you were to go celebrate with your friend. I wonder how many of the fancy schmoozer's sat at home moaning how they wished they did not have to go to this.
Being true to yourself is the most beautiful thing in the world and scary to people who don't have it.
Just for the record if I ever have a party you can attend I expect any of your family 2 or 4 legged who travel well to come along
Those people were just envious of how comfortable you are with yourself. I tend to be a very casual, comfortable, birkenstock-wearing girl myself. You'd be welcome at any party that my friends or I would throw!
Keep taking care of you...
Artygirl.
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Kudo's to you.............for being yourself. I have found most people who "think" they are high falutin' are just playing some sort of a role that is a must in their society. They are phoney, and not real, only portaying themselves as they are there to impress, trying to outdo each other. Keeping up with the "Jone's" has never been my game, and I like you have just been "me". A person shines from within herself/himself no matter what you are wearing or how big your bobbles are on your fingers etc. Material things has never mattered in my life, it is the love of family and friends which is most important to me..............I am glad you went and I am sure your friend will treasure your gift as it is as unique as you are!.......gardengal
Debilyn you amaze me. I feel a connection and we have never met!!!
I recently came back in contact with my high school crush from 1977. They are divorced and remarried. Said we should have found each other sooner. They are very successful. Their work was featured on one of the morning shows.
I will not reply to their last email even though it's breaking my heart. It is not a good thing to do. We are so different. I do dream...no regrets.
It is the connection I feel with you. Today I hauled a load of hay and will keep hauling and stacking hay until I have enough for winter. Time to put up as much bedding, firewood as I can.
I live with 5 JacK Russell Terriers that rule my house, 6 horses. The reality for myself is my lifestyle is not that of most folks and their understanding/appreciation of my world is often limited.
Good for you being true to yourself. I hope to someday have the strength to mirror that.
I listen to the wind.....to the wind of my soul.
Where I'll end up, well, I think only God really knows.
I sat upon a setting sun.
I listen to my words but they fall far below.
I'll let the music and my passions... take me where my heart wants to go.
I swam upon the devils lake.
But never, never,never, will I make that same mistake.
I love the way you gifted wrapped, sometimes I use interesting scraps of material or whatever I can get my hands on. 