You know the first time I heard that quote (it's by Mrs FDR btw) I felt that I was being minimized. And to some degree, what I was doing was I wasn't really absorbing what was being said--AA's say "If your a** falls off, pick it up, bring it to a meeting, and don't drink over it. We'll help you figure out what to do from there." So for me, today, any time I reach the end of my rope, I've come to see what's really happened is I've been using my solutions again to solve my problems. I haven't been praying; I haven't been asking for help; I haven't been thinking "Ok, how would God/my sponsor/my sponsorship family want me to handle this problem?"; I've been re/acting rather than acting; I've been using my pre recovery thinking rather than my recovery thinking.

 Now alternatively, there are just days, like when I posted "Remind me (again) that I'll be okay." As one of my friends said about I think it was the 10/9 HOPE FOR TODAY devotion, that no matter which side of the road's fork you choose, you're gonna have to go through sh***. And those are the days when I have to borrow your recovery because I'm using mine to the max. Those are the days when I need you to remind me that I'm only human, doing the best I can with what I've got where I'm at and all that.

 And that's hard. I'm used to being superwoman. I'm used to fixing everybody. I'm used to being Ms Know It All, Can Do It All, Don't Stop Me Now Because I'm Hot, you know how it goes. So it's humility too.

 So I don't know. It's a process. And some days I'm so good It's SCARY! Most days it's like Wow. Thank God I got through this day with you God. Cause I couldn'ta got through it with just me.