When I joined this program I was lost and hurt, scared, tired, troubled, full of resentment, anger, unhappiness, doubt.

What this program has done for me is it has showed me the way at a life that I have wanted but was to scared to try to have. Now I know progress is not perfect. I know that I will have hard days but as I have seen my good days are becoming more and more. My life is changing for the better. When I started I was ready to just give up I was trying to fight all the things in my life that were working against me. At the time I didn't realize that my HP was showing me the way. I didn't understand why my road was so difficult I felt every turn was wrong. Instead of just letting my HP have it all and just let it go and let my hp take over. Since doing so I have seen some amazing things happen in my life. The program showed me something I had forgotten a longtime ago. To love and show love. I was so lost before my recovery I forgot how much easier it is to say a kind word to someone. Because it means so much to me just to be myself. I have things I am still working on will for the rest of my life. But I know now that I can learn to trust again. Trust myself enough to love myself again, because I am worth it. I can't control how people will react to me. I can't control things outside of me. But I can control how I react when put in situations I don't agree with. I can forgive those that don't understand what I have, seen what I have and show them unconditional love no matter what. Last year I had a friend send me something that meant alot to them a piece of their heart. This was before I was in recovery. I recently tried to send it back to them with a letter inside telling them how beautiful it was and thanking them for sending it to me but I could no longer keep it was returned sender unknown. At first it made me sad but then I realized my HP has a plan. I just have to give it back to my hp like he told me to do when I was returning it. I may not understand but my HP does I have faith and comfort in knowing that. So this program is teaching me so many things. I know I can love, I know I can trust. Those were both things I didn't know if I was capable of. I am learning, for me that is progress. I have my slips but when I do I know what I have to do to get back on track. (manicure, haircut, pedicure, hot bath, massage, got to the country for a drive, or to the lake and look at the water) LOL. For me this is what gets me back centered and focused on me and what I need to do to keep my serenity. When all else fails I read extra in my daily books.

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