The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
As some of you know I have been working a pretty low wage job and not really getting that far with my plan b. I have the opportunity tomorrow to go interview for a much better paid job and also another interview on Monday. I am hoping to do like Andrea and others have to land a job despite the odds against me which will help me over that hump. I so much want to have better options to have the wherewithall to say I have options rather than be stuck.
So please pray for me.. I know that my HP will send me a job when I am ready and I am ready to have an income that will give me better options. I am also ready to be more out there in the world rather than stuck at home on my pity pot or stuck in poverty.
I have not had a social life for years with the A. The world revolved around him. He has plenty of time for his friends. I last went to a movie a year ago (I paid of course..I always pay).
This weekend I am going out to meet a friend at Starbucks. It is not much but it is something it may be the beginning of something it may not. I have a friend, I allow myself to have that without getting into the shame of the way I live with the A. I allow myself that without being suffused in his drama, chaos and need.
So there are a few good things happening for me in my plan b..which is just in the embryo stages but could advance quickly ..if I had an income..if I had better options that did not all involve catastophe. I deserve a better life I learned that here. And my life has me at the center of it rather than a totally indifferent A.
You go girl! I wish I could get a friend...you're doing better than me in that area. I not only have the embarrassing A but 3 kids to drag around with me wherever I go so friends are hard to find! I have tried lots of things but people here are not very receptive (so much for southern hospitality).
My prayers are good vibes are with you today and every day!!! I am sure something will come along that will be perfect for you and HP will take care of you.... and congratulations on getting out and meeting a friend! It takes a lot of courage to just get away and hang out, I find that I want to hover around the A, not do anything on my own. It is a gradual process but very freeing and you will feel better about yourself!! There is a whole, wide world out there that is pretty neat!!! So much to do, to see!
