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Well my lovelies, as you all know I visited the land of cowboys and cactus this last weekend. I did my best to be bring my Al-Anon with me and I wanted to share what I learned about myself. I like doing a continuous tenth step around my recovery. I haven't made a post on this board in a long time. So here goes:
1. I learned I can take a chance and succeed - airplane rides, meeting wonderful, fantastic, new friends, and knowing it's ok to have fun and socialize, and dance...teehee. 2. I learned I can take a chance and not succeed - we went to a water park on Saturday and I sucked water on one of the rides. Because I don't know how to swim I was afraid even before I got there. I decided not to do anymore rides after that because I was panicked. I felt foolish, angry that I was so afraid, and I was feeling sorry for myself. I said the serenity prayer, cried a little, ok I cried more than a little, and was grateful that my other friends had a fantastic time and that my fear only affected me. 3. I discovered I can try new things and like them - the Texas Two Step and country music are kinda fun...teehee. 4. I can go having expectations for something and be ok when they don't turn out like I think they will. 5. I can be disappointed and know that my feelings are ok 6. I can have feelings and not be ashamed 7. I can not be perfect and still be ok, especially with myself 8. I can have fun- if I bring anything home from my trip it's knowing that just because I went somewhere else to have fun doesn't mean I can't bring some fun home with me and a new conviction to have fun at home. 9. Ok...this one I already knew, I have some lovely beautiful friends out there in alanon, grateful to have them on my spiritual journey. 10. HP gave me permission to be me and when I need to change something about myself, HP gives me permission to change and insight into what that change might be. 11. Ok Ok, some of this stuff I already knew when I went down there, but I have the opportunity to be reminded frequently when I need to be, that's why I love this program, I am allowed to step outside my comfort zone and learn. Love you all, SenoraBob
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Wow, Bob, glad to hear from you! Glad your trip was great, and isn't it wonderful to learn new things all the time. Great post! Keep up the good work, my friend!
What a wonderful adventure in Recovery - as it is apparent in your post - it is a process and what a wonderful process you are going thru!!
Thank you so much for sharing this with us - thanks. reminding me that it's ok not to be perfect and I don't have to conquer all my fears at one time -
Awesome, awesome recovery - Thank you so very, very much,
Love the way I am learning to live One Day at time,
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
i especially like the part that says, 'I can not be perfect, but still be ok, especially with myself' I often have trouble in social situations and still at f2f as well, so this is something i struggle with. i'm glad u were able to be ok with yourself, and pass along your strong es&h!
